Dear Community,
I send you good intent😅
I just read one of the top posts here, where someone who is classified as a bad played by this subreddit understanding of the term posted that this community is weird.
And I just wanted to express my gratitude to you for putting up with all this, I imagine it's not to pleasant. And thank you for putting your energy to this cause and if I can be a little selfish please continue to do so.
If you can please find it in you to dismiss my bad grammar and lack of effort on my part to make this more coherent.
I write to you because of other things as well.
Mainly I bear a little fear that buy the time I get a little momentum for thise practices something chould happen to this subreddit, to your intent for this subreddit, and I would be left stranded so to speak.
Secondly maybe you would gift me with some of your understanding? Give me some insight where I stand and where to go?
I hit a point in my life about a year and a half ago where I experienced some really heavy emotions that jolted me awake from my previous laziness, disinterest nonchalant attitude about reality we live in.
I started working out, dropped cigarettes, started learning and started meditating.
Now I always felt there is more to life then pure scientific look, although for the longest time it was the only look I was pursuing, I wasn't religious ever since I first questioned God existence, maybe around 12 years of age.
I tell you all this so you know when I started meditating I consumed everything from Buddhism, Hinduism, Daoism, Taoism, much more, wasn't picky...
From pure curiosity standpoint I wanted to find something that would give a model of the larger picture.
I settled on my own understanding from all of those,
It revolved around consciousness, but that was important only to settle my curiosity.
The most important point was the practice, meditation that I did, it wasn't any one practice(school, instruction, model) as much as it was all of them.
I took what worked for me, what gave me results, made some of my own understanding and it was working.
I first learned that I am not my thoughts, I learned to observe them, to quiet them some what, to be present in every moment,
And the highest point and the best part for me was when I would direct my attention at any concept and I would just start to understand this about it, how it works, how it fits into other concepts, dare I say knowledge was coming to me on its own, I didn't think, I was silent and would just pick a topic, concept, people, situations and they would start reveling themselvesto me... I can't explain it better right now, that's the only understanding I have left of that time as I stoped my practice around a year ago.
When I stopped I only remember I wanted to play some more in life, and I put effort in observing how I change in time as I stoped practicing because I know I would degrade in time from where I was at the moment.
This is what's left of that time, and I did play this last year😁
Now I feel that it's time to start again but for a lifetime now I satisfied my curiosity last year and I'm getting ready to start again.
I looked for something more this time, I knew what meditation chould give me and looked for something more.
I wanted magic since I was a kid to this day, just never felt I could touch it until I stumbled on this subreddit by accident, or maybe our intents aligned.
That's what I wanted to say, I don't know what to ask, I know that right know I have to put in effort and work.
I just wanted to hear what you thing about all this and I guess to send you good intent.
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you should look at the notable posts in the wiki, to start with! If you have already read them, you should know what to practice to begin.
there’s also recent experiences from people here, like those commented by u/superr, that show you that working hard really gives results.
I have already, and have gotten some general view of what I should do for practice and have take same baybe steps in that direction to get a feel for all of this.
Experience from other people are really filling some void I'm enjoying them, thanks.
You should read at least the Silent Knowledge booklet where key concepts discussed here are explained. What you read in this subreddit are bits and pieces that assume you already have some foundation on those concepts.
https://archive.org/details/carloscastanedasilentknowledge1996
I have already, actually it's the only one I read and the wiki section on this sub, most of it.
But I will one more time, thank you.
Learn to move your assemblage point daily, a little further each time.
And become fully familiar with what happens when it moves.
Any analysis of that, is just blue line thinking. Ordinary, socialization controlled thought.
You need to witness what's REALLY going on with your own eyes.
How reality, really works.
Actually, some of it is a little depressing. It's like visiting the sausage factory to see how your favorite "Farmer John" brand is made.
In China.
Just don't get me started on that one. You have no idea... I remember one Chinese food factory worker who told me, "If you knew what I did, you'd never eat anything from China again."
So learn how the sausages are actually made, and then the next time your friend is enjoying his breakfast and gives you a grin when he bites into those Farmer John sausages, you can give him the sorcerer's "nod of acknowledgement".
He'll think you're agreeing that those are indeed, very good sausages.
I don't shy away from depressing or ugly maybe I'm jumping before a horse( if it's said like that) but if it actually works I'm willing.
Can I be given some more knowledge into the depressing parts?
Did sausages metafor refer to my understanding in genral from the post or to a sunshine, optimistic view of magic I possibly expressed?
Or to what is in store for someone on this path?
If your wiling to answer I would be grateful.
It's a little like one day you discover a door in your home that you never saw before.
You open it, and see a bunch of super advanced computer equipment.
And suddenly you remember, this world is just a simulation!
You agreed to try it out. But you forgot about that long ago.
None of it is real, and nothing of what happens matters.
But you still get to do magic that would make Dr. Strange himself jealous!
I do nightly.
The problem is, if everyone is just a phantom and nothing matters, who can you impress?
But you can find a hobby. Hobbies don't have to have any purpose.
If that is true wouldn't that make this practice the only thing actually worth doing? If all else is ,,simulation,, and nothing we perceive is real then that witch gives us means to escape or influence that simulation is at least more true then things that don't.
But I have truly great need to know if someone on this path can heal people, organically if I may use that term, if it is incorrect term what I mean is can you influence biological processes, other people don't need to know that you did that? Maybe advancing on this path gives you a different view of what a disease or illness or wound is but if so can you elaborate that part for me?
And does doing good (helping someone)really means nothing? If nothing really matters.
I assume I may be annoying right know but this will be last questions I have.
You're thinking about this according to what the fake magic systems claim.
That you can "learn" magic. They claim that, so they can charge you money to "teach" it.
It's just not possible!
Real magic only comes from a personal transformation. No one else can cause that for you.
It used to be possible to "learn", but it took 15 powerful sorcerers all working together, just to "guarantee" a specific person could be taught.
The lineages...
But they're gone. And even when they were here, no one could volunteer. They had to be chosen by "the spirit". The force of intelligence stemming from reality itself.
So can you do those things you said?
Someone could.
But you'd have to discover how to do it.
Which is unlikely because there's 1 million other things you could discover, which would interest you even more.
And yes, there's no choice but to be doing this.
Everything else is a complete fraud designed only to steal your money.
All religions, all magical systems.
All frauds.
There's google now! It's easy to prove that to yourself.
Thank you Dan. I will try.
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