Since I have realized how much internal dialogue is controlling my perception I have become a nazi in destroying it and stopping it. I became very successful at removing the top layer of internal dialogue during the regular day hours, the layer that is most favorable to flyers you can say. I got huge benefits as not caring for self importance and seeing it in other people clear as a day and not reacting to it at all. As well as I got a huge clarity on my life as iam not afraid anymore
The next stage came tho, where there are so many HEAVY battles happening in my life at the same time that my internal dialogue is disgustingly huge if I let it be. At times it feels like me stopping it is like a water platoon holding a tsunami. I still successfuly do, even tho I may spill couple gallons here and there, but main thing I noticed what it does to my body and that is the main question of this post.
I get huge pressure around my belly button area and my whole body is aching time to time when the water platoon gets under huge pressure of inner dialogue at difficult times of the battles(especially mornings when I just wake up). Meanwhile I feel fantastic in my mind most of time as I don't "think", this body pressure sometimes feels like too much. Is this the will power as described in the books or is it me making shit up?
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I think it is natural when new things occur that your awareness moves there and you want to get rid of it. Probably will not be the last of this kind. Just stay with it and redirect your attention again is what I would say.
I get this overwhelming feeling of tiredness especially when I haven't been very silent for some time and as well pressure at the top of my spine towards the head but as my awareness drops lower it lessens (or it doesnt, either way is fine) and then oftentimes loads and loads of cracking. One time there was cracking (not painful) at the very top of the spine and everything was so lose I felt like my head would fall off. It was just balancing there on its own. Weird to describe. And whenever this happened it was associated with a letting go of craving and judgement in my internal dialogue.
When you are really thirsty you don't think of anything but a sip of water. That's all that matters in that moment. Same with hunger or sleep deprivation. I think this highlights what drives that internal dialogue which leads to complain about each and everything
Will becomes visible much further out on the J curve. In the purple zone.
If that's the same as what you're sensing, no one can say.
It's like "knowing" what's there in front of you. With your feelings and movements also. So that you realize you could change it on demand.
It seems to be connected to our ability to hold a new position of the assemblage point.
Unfortunately, that topic is contaminated by ludicrous Chinese writings.
People try to create a book deal for themselves by pretending to have insight, based on chinese make believe.
That's when you realize what don Juan meant under winning and loosing is an illusion. They all meet in the same point in the end. It's all the inner dialogue telling what you are or what you should feel.
You're imagining your sorcery.
It's not a good sign for you. Unless you're really young in which case it's understandable. We're programmed to do that, when young.
But if not, you should know there's votes in private chat on how long it will take your head to explode.
I hope you don't think that kind of "inventory warrior" thinking will get you anywhere.
Of course it's natural to do that. We all do. Or hopefully, "did". And now "don't".
So don't feel bad. I mean that. Seriously. I'm just trying to help here.
Remember, "The coverup is worse than the crime."
Ask Nixon.
I'm a bit leery about this sort of "intellectual analysis" sorcery, because it often turns out people who believe you can "think up" knowledge have plans to cheat others with fake magic lessons.
Maybe just learn to turn yourself into a werewolf, go outside into your neighborhood to see if it's real, and then come tell us?
That's red zone.
Ok I will shut up and won't come back till at least I get to meet and befriend inorganic body
We've had a "bad run" this week.
The levels of magic I'm seeing lately, are what usually triggers attacks of 3 on the subreddit.
Progress means attacks.
But this week, it's almost like being bitten on the ankles. You can almost ignore it, but it's so persistent you have to look down and figure out why it's happening.
We were also commenting on that in the chat.
But contrast your reaction, with the Bardon guy.
He just won't give up.
And his arguments are so tedious, I don't even know how to answer them.
He said this subreddit was "just words". No different than any random magic subreddit.
All he wants is to learn to shapeshift, then he's out of here.
Your reaction is promising!
All we want is more people to learn to move their assemblage points, at least to the red zone.
After that it's a "choice" to go on.
Maybe we'll have better luck if we concentrate on "practical magic".
Jadey and I are working on that.
I keep getting trapped in the abstract, trying to switch from the tonal body to the double.
She either comes to me in her double, since she does womb dreaming, or I have to go to her in mine.
But I don't do sleeping dreaming, so I have to "shrink" into the double.
Problem is, going from "here" to "there" seems to be what Carlos was describing when he said, "the abstract becomes visible".
I never thought about that becoming a "trap".
I got trapped 5 times trying to get to Jadey 2 nights ago.
Try not being a nazi