i need magic ;-;

If you want to be a girl there’s a few subreddits that could probably help like r/asktransgender or r/trans

They’re welcoming and please please please remember that it is NEVER a bad thing to want to be the gender you want to be

Shape shifting into a girl is probably one of the most difficult things you could do. Essentially you want your AP to be in a specific position and you need to turn yourself "inside out". In reality if your able to do something remotely close, you would have other things to worry about. And your working with intent and IOBs if you want to manifest that for other people too, wich is arguably more difficult. But as long as your motivation is not a crappy book you want to write, you might actually learn over a longer period of time. But for that to happen everything you know about yourself has to go, including all your motivations. And when they are gone you would realize you do sorcery not for a "goal" but for the nature of it.

Research the death defier.

From my "personal" point of view. No others have said they see the same thing thus far. Not in castaneda anyhow that I have heard.

Changing body parts does not make woman or man.

I n the proper conditions, I can watch the red . white, blue energy in a body . s opposite depending on sex. Or seems to be. Thus you cant change sex with any sort of medical procedure.

of course anyone who did it magically would not want it known by the world at large.

A LOT to read???? So I'm assuming based on that statement that you've read... zero of the books by Carlos AND the witches????

It is a LOT of material to cover, but fortunately for us, the majority of the books are available to listen to on YT!🖤

In fact, Magical Passes is the only physical book I own (so far), and consequently, the only one I've technically read. All the others I've listened to recordings of.

Because of the nature of the book Magical Passes, actually reading it seems very necessary. Bc of its contents, though, there really isn't a whole LOT to read! Most of it is pictures demonstrating correct forms for the passes.

The passages of text in the beginning, before the pictures, are so powerful when it comes to helping me understand the nature and purpose of the movements, and of Sorcery as a whole.

But when I first got the book I didn't read any of it. I flipped to the section for the series for the womb and started practicing...

I let Intent guide me into learning which passes I add to my tensegrity routine.

After the series for the womb I had started on Volume 2 (the Chocmools video is on YT) but only got to the 4th pass. That is the beginning of the Affection for the energy body pass, and it was next for me.

I had just finished listening to Active Side of Infinity and was a tad depressed that I had gone through all the books...then I remembered I hadn't technically started reading MP yet. Idk...that book is just so special to me. My 16y/o teases me that it's my new Bible...as I'm always highlighting passages and carrying it around everywhere I go.

Dan says that Cholitas books are all magical objects now, having had them so long and storing so much energy in them.

Went on a bit of a tangent there lol.

Anyway, I know you said you chose running man bc you don't have a lot of room to walk around...there are soooo many passes you can do in a very small space. Or you can modify the movements to fit the space you have.

Dan encouraged me in this when I first started and was doing DRG in my closet...very little space to move in there.

Also...I'm not sure how old you are buy I saw someone mention that you're quite young.

My 16y/o morphs their gender based on their mood. Obvs they don't morph their physical body...but if you didn't know them and they were presenting as male, you wouldn't know they were afab.

If you are unhappy with some part of your life, the best thing to do is treat it as a magical task. Stalk yourself.

I've had to do this to keep from losing my mind as I'm expected to be a good Christian wife and mother... which I am not.

Stalking really helps with losing the self importance and self pity too, which make your magic stronger.

You should read/listen to Taishas books. Sorcerers Crossing is on YT and Stalking With the Double is on archive.org. I'm listening to it now. It's a bit of a pain bc it only plays as long as my phone is open so I have to remember to touch the screen every couple minutes. Buy worth it.

Taisha was/is a superb stalker. She became every imaginable variation of a person. From boy adventurer, to wealthy debutante, to a literal beggar in the street.

The last one was definitely against her will...but by the end of it, she wanted to stay there, in filth, with her beggar mother.

I bet she could help you get some insight.

Sure. Or in other words, you want to be rewarded. But how long will you last, even if things go badly?

I like walnuts. I could buy some every day. But what if they're all sold out? Or the store closes? And I don't like it on principle when someone tells me they're out? Like a stubborn person, wanting NOW some walnuts?

So I'd have to plant my own walnut tree. Then I'd be independent of the mentioned circumstances. However, it takes four decades for fruitful harvests. For satisfaction of the need of wanting NOW some walnuts.

In addition, the tree must be regularly cared during all this time. Needs effort and work. Same with sorcery.