Been seeing this my whole life - clarification

I began seeing “sparks of light” in my peripherals. I went to a doctor of them, thinking I was losing my vision.

This is always a good idea, for multiple reasons. We do not advocate, in any way, taking a Christian-Scientist type approach and trying to find "spiritual" solutions to problems with our biological bodies.

If you're sick, go to a doctor. Don't try and sorcery your way out of it, as you get sicker. The kind of strong and completely functional connecting link to intent that would theoretically make that possible, is YEARS (and boatloads of effort) away for us.

Don't neglect your body. Sorcery is technology, and neglect isn't pragmatic.

Going to the doctor can also assist in assuaging one's doubts that it's all just wonky retinal cells or misfiring neurons (ie. that there's, hopefully, nothing wrong). The imposed mind always looks for a way out of the alternative explanation afforded by the knowledge presented in this sub.

I’m currently wrapping my head around “intent” and not glossing it to explain “god

Good luck with that! It twists my brain into knots even attempting to write or think about it...leaving me with the stance that's it's best to "put that to bed" at our level, and just DO rather than think.

Easier said than done though!

>There was clearly a giant spider running on the ground of my parent’s dimly lit room.

Cool! An arachnoid inorganic being manifestation!

So you already have an Ally, you just need to wrestle with her to gain her as a permanent friend.

> I noticed a pulsating purple cloud

It's your energy body coming out to take a closer look at you. Normally it's pushed to the outside around 5-8 feet distant from us, but any form of meditation is likely to get it interested.

You can learn to form that into very real things, gather it into a larger ball (there are 8 pieces the size of soccer balls), create phantoms or even freeway overpasses in a dark room. Very real, right there, even solid if you shift further right on the J curve map.

I used to stage Japanese truck accidents in my darkroom using my "evil" Ally Fancy.

She didn't like dying over and over in fiery crashes where her truck plummeted 100 feet to land in front of me and burst into flames. So she took revenge and I don't do that anymore.

Unfortunately, all meditation systems fall trap to the green line on our J curve diagram, and end up slimed in self-flattery. So they never get down to the red, where you can begin to play with that stuff like it was "proto matter".

They trade magic, for a little thone to lord it over others.

Here's the map, you'll find your purple blobs and the spider on the right. In my case, I changed my horrible demon into a pretty Fairy, and we share her in this subreddit. She was a gift from Carlos himself (in scary form).

>The sparks of light began to happen directly in front of me sometimes.

The blue one is called, "the blue pearl" in yoga systems, and it's not an uncommon sight if the assemblage point shifts even a tiny bit down that J curve (railroad tracks) in the picture. We're all trapped at the upper right, trying to learn to move it down.

The Olmecs discovered that 8000 years ago, before money was invented. It took thousands of sorcerers, thousands of years, to figure out what's going on. No other system even has a clue. They just play with the effects of the "assemblage point" moving, without knowing that's what's going on.

Their goal is your money, so they have no reason to look further.

Everything after money was invented around 6000 years ago, is designed only to steal using those "green station" effects to trick people into believing it's a real "path" to something more. Mixed with some religious delusions, they can completely brainwash the populations of entire countries. Then once everyone believes the nonsense, everyone in that system says, "how can everyone be wrong?"

But in fact, everyone is wrong. We're all trapped in a prison for our awareness.

Wasn't always so. Mankind is 300,000 years old.

The shit only came about starting around 10,000 years ago, after language was invented 40,000 years earlier, and humans began to join efforts and create technology.

Tech is wonderful! But it's not good for learning sorcery, a much higher form of technology.

Sorcerers escape that "Blue Station" on the J curve, travel past the green, and go exploring outside the "system".

I asked my eye doctor about the dots too, and he said it was probably a neuron in the eye structure dying.

That's how primitive our "knowledge" is these days!

His "neuron dying" explanation doesn't account for why once you reach the Orange station on that map, you can wave your arm in the air and generate dozens of those dots, in various colors.

So your problem now is giving up on pretending (which other systems do 100%) and overcoming laziness to learn to move your assemblage point on purpose.

If you what you want is your own little throne to sit on so you can collect money from others based on your saintliness, then you'll never be able to learn sorcery.

You have to want to learn it, just because you do. And don't care if anyone else ever even knows about it.

You have to become a "magic nerd".

Then you have to find 2 hours a day to practice.

Only 1 in 100 who comes here can manage that.

It's why magic has nearly left our world. It takes actual work to learn.

Pretending, in order to get human attention like they do in meditation systems, is far easier than actually working to learn something that gets scarier and scarier as you go along.

"Real" is often very scary.

That's the first enemy to overcome, if you actually put in some work to learn to be silent in your mind.

Meditation did NOT get you silent.

It was just a substitute internal dialogue.

Shamanic drumming could do the same.

And any woman kicks butt over meditation gurus. She just doesn't have any male "endorsement" to make that widely known.

Except in here.

Can I steal your post for facebook?

It won't have anything to identify you.

Wait a minute and I'll find a giant spider picture and add it to this comment, then use it on facebook.

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When I was a teenager I woke up in the middle of sleep and saw an IOB in the form of an old woman dressed in period clothes and hairstyle too.. She became so alive in front of me that I thought a stranger had really invaded my room( too much fear for me!) the same had happened my mother in the next room after a while although to my mother it appeared as smoke rising from the floor to the ceiling, in fact I remember my mother chasing this smoke with a cloth from the window (she thought something had caught fire inside at home).
When I went to study right outside the house where I lived I had seen some more strange happenings.. At first I heard running water without any water supply in the middle of the road, then I looked towards the road and saw water falling from a height of half a meter like rain and the water forming a round lake out of nowhere, I had seen this particular phenomenon at least 3 times.

I’ve been reading his books too, and finally I feel I’ve found someone who has the same experiences I’ve had all my life. My question is, this happening to us so easily and naturally, without guidance, what does that mean? I’m certain I’m being trained in another world. I have some memories of being there when I wake up in the physical. I even remember a dream from the age of 5 where members of a group I was traveling through a canyon with where telling me I was next in line, only if I wanted to.

Things finally falling into place and making some sense to my life.

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