Abstract entry into sleeping dreaming

Perhaps this isn't appropriate to share, but the
experience is really motivating me now:

Four days ago, I sat down on the couch in my living room with lights and TV on, spouse working on his projects. I'd vaped three hits of cannabis about 15 minutes earlier, of which I'm long accustomed to using throughout the day. I likely also was a bit caffeinated, and the medications I've been taking for 7+ years are Yaz, levothyroxine, and Wellbutrin.

I finally had a chance to try this and had been preparing for the opportunity, when my husband was going to be busy for a while. I relaxed my eyes until they were unfocused and I was seeing my whole field of vision evenly, letting my vision and hearing become incomprehensible, and my bodily feelings started to merge with the sound and space around me.

Very generally, the way I've learned to gaze in daylight is by relaxing and moving my eyes in as many different ways as possible, like rolling them and quickly darting them repetitively or rhythmically, then alternating focus between each eyeball, holding onto a point of focus with one eye at a time, switching between focusing on individual points and "zooming out" to see my incomprehensible shifting vision as a whole. It's gotten to where I will fixate one eye while moving the other, then alternate, simultaneously switching focus between them. The present reality breaks down, and I can forget my "self" because I can't think rationally while being engrossed in that sort of chaotic, focused activity.

Eventually, my stimulated vision transitioned into flickering, black-orange-purple nonsense, as the points I was watching before whipped around, and wherever I focused my vision would show incomprehensible little things, like strange art-y sculpture things. They were like the physical manifestations of a suggestion or possibility, like each feature stimulated an idea upon focus, and every part kept changing or remaining incomprehensible. It looked like how "the abstract" appears sometimes in the instructional illustrations here.

So, I was keeping in mind if that is the abstract, then I need to focus on it while pulling on my double. That sensation of pulling on my double--feeling something like a full bodily orgasm squeezing into a small point of focus somewhere in my vision, maybe even tied to some specific sound to better anchor my tonal to that small point. I pulled/squeezed on the feeling of the connection to my double, and the abstract small visuals I was focusing on changed simultaneously into a moving silhouette of a small person, then two small people who looked like they were helping each other crawl into the scene from a sliver located around the center right in my total field of vision. I was also simultaneously rolling or falling backwards from where I was sitting, up through the top of my head, but it felt like my physical body was sucked up into a tiny, ball-like feeling while the rest of me flipped backwards--like my physical body was caught onto/into something as the rest of me flipped over to land on my feet behind the couch. I walked around to the front of it and I could perceive me sitting, sleeping on the couch, but with that body's feeling tucked away into something like a tiny kite attached to it. But, I was now walking around a dreamy version of the room, everything staying in place. I got really excited, because I was dreaming, while asleep, and in my double without losing consciousness! There were people appearing, while I could still see my physical body sitting next to my husband, who was oblivious to everything happening.

I had the feeling I was talking to Dan, like his face was being assembled by the whipping, swirling abstractions. They seemed reflective, or clear-ish but with form and movement. I think I next went on the computer to verify the phantom subreddit, then I think someone else was there in the room. I remember I flew to someone's house and met three people there--it was like a different version of the house at the end of Once Upon a Time in Hollywood. I was elated and struggling not to let emotions pull me back to my original physical reality where I was sleeping. I had difficulty believing what was happening, and
Dan, Jadey, and Cholita were there, or their doubles were, patiently reassuring me that this was real, with Cholita jolting me by reaching through to grab my actual physical toe. I think I almost blanked out, but then I felt the carpet on the floor of the house, like I was laying on it, and the three of them were encouraging me to observe and feel the textures of the features of the room, like the carpet and a brick wall, since it would better hold me there in the house and help my energy body keep shape. I was almost too excited and just flew around in the air above the house for a moment, and then came back down. I think then is when I decided I wanted to return to my physical body and wake up before I lost myself in the dream and might blank out and not believe what had happened. Someone told me to share this to reddit (and look like a total maniac). As the feelings of my physical body started returning, though still asleep, I feel like I did something like "let go" of the dream house, everyone, and everything else at the scene, and I felt like I was sliding back to the common point of connection between my physical body and my double. Then just opening my physical eyes for real, sitting on my couch as I was where I started--and I never lost consciousness or lucidity!🤯

When I opened my eyes, my body was very groggy and sleepy-feeling. It took a few hours to finally feel not so woozy, I honestly felt a bit drunk and still somewhere between sleep and awake.

This is the second time that I went into dreaming asleep directly from awake intentionally since my first post here, but I originally thought I was dreaming awake because the same induction and conclusion happened, and I never lost consciousness. It was the same experience, except that I couldn't really distinguish who I was interacting with as well, and I was trying to do as many things as I could remember from the diagram of the J-curve, and was being given suggestions for things to try by the (mostly) two beings I interacted with. It seemed like more people were there, but they were inaccessible. I felt like I was taken into someone else's dream to interact with these beings or people. After interacting for a time, it felt like I wandered off to the left and found myself at the entrance of a tunnel with others connected to it. The tunnel walls looked like they were covered with or made of Twinkies, and then maybe 3 or 4 of these beings that reminded me of stretched marshmallow Peeps just sort of appeared (I think Taisha or Florinda described something like that?), and we seemed to notice each other simultaneously. I decided to end the experience and it felt like I was opening a second set of eyes to what I was already seeing in my room as I was pulling back into my physical body.

From the recreation and elaboration of these dreaming sessions, moving even further during the second one, it does appear to work as an entrance into sleeping dreaming for me. The evening of the "flying to the house" experience, I tried to repeat the induction at bedtime, though I lost myself to blanking out. I was laying in bed in no special way as if to sleep, so it isn't surprising. I want to keep playing around with making it work at bedtime though, it's incredible (and still a bit hard to believe)!🤩