Greetings all, thank you for taking the time to read and try to understand my overwhelming feelings put into thought.
I am very new to the ideas of Castaneda and (
shamanism in general, but have a variety of different backgrounds I am familiar with.
With that in mind, I am mostly speaking from experiences I have had and not from any training or practitioner .
When I was younger I had an 'encounter' with what some call a Skinwalker when I tell the story, I personally believe this was my Nahual and counterpart. It came to me in a time of great distress and physical need, it was a man and a creature or perhaps a creature turning into a man or a man turning into a creature.
In the same area, in another time of great distress, I had an encounter with either a Jaguar or black/pigmented Mountain Lion drinking from the water and acknowledging me and leaving, leaving me with a sense of connection and peace and focus of sorts.
I have not encountered my friend for quite a while, even in other forms. I rarely remember my dreams and when I do they are always about other people, not my self.
If we are connected, is it possible they have died and that's why I feel so disconnected from nature and life? How do I try to contact them?
Thank you for any information you can provide, my heart is hurting and I remember my counterpart soothing this in me long ago.
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You mentioned a key word for me. Elaborate in detail on this "skinwalker" experience they tend not to let people live or remain sane. Unless forced to do so.
To be clear, I would not call it a Skinwalker as traditionally described.
These experiences were both negative/fearful and peaceful/positive if that makes any sense, very balanced memories.
The 'skinwalker' was basically a deer that transformed into a very tall man. This whole encounter had more to do with how I felt I suppose.
I posted this elsewhere, I'll edit and add the link to that post.
You were asleep? Or on drugs?
I was fully awake but there was no light except for the moonlight that I can recall. I have aphantasia and this was over a decade ago.
I understand the red flag perspective, I will try to do some more reading and come back when I have the proper vocabulary.
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