every time I read a book by Castaneda, fears awaken in me, perhaps because some concepts put me in contact with the natural fear of the unknown, however I wanted to know if the same happens to you too
every time I read a book by Castaneda, fears awaken in me, perhaps because some concepts put me in contact with the natural fear of the unknown, however I wanted to know if the same happens to you too
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It's very useful to identify what part of "you" is afraid. And also to notice how there is no comparable fear while reading something that is pretend, obvious or otherwise.
The body knows. And not the body you're likely thinking about.
you're right, if I were to read a horror book I wouldn't feel this fear, but I don't know how to find my scared part, the only thing that comes to mind is the fear of "death" in the sense of losing the patterns that characterize my reality, because in accepting that there is something beyond what you "see" it diminishes every aspect of everyday life, making it almost lose meaning in the light of something bigger
It’s an understandable primal fear and the biggest one to overcome: the fear of everything you know is an illusion.
The illusion being that everything is final. That nothing else exists.
Realizing and accepting that nothing is final is very jarring to our self conception. For a moment, nothing seems real and life starts losing its meaning like what you stated above.
Then something magical starts happening if you keep going with abandonment and not necessarily recklessness.
Your perception widens. You start noticing things that you overlooked your entire life and were hiding in plain sight. You ultimately begin to view reality for what it truly is: Energy.
I’ve personally experienced the fear that you’re talking about, OP. It came in the form of trauma from a petty tyrant in my life. The trauma morphed into chronic illness. Both forced me to shift my perception in order to survive.
I'm happy to see that others have gone through the same emotions, I don't know anyone to talk to about these things and often when strange things happen to me I don't know if they are suggestion or real things.
It’s definitely hard to talk about non-ordinary reality to ppl that have never experienced it. More probable than not, your experiences are quickly invalidated and you are accused reflexively.
In terms of distinguishing whether those strange things are real or suggestions, you’ll need sobriety in my opinion.
Accepting those strange things as real, but rejecting the stranglehold they hold over you. It’s a matter of not indulging.
that's the setup. there is always something beyond what you see. you believing it diminishes everything is your judgment upon yourself. which is your prison that you have to set yourself free from.
I think the unknown is always scary. But do we always need to know what we are afraid of or why? Much more important to become silent again and allow fear to pass. And you're still there! Whenever you allow a part of yourself to die, it's scary. But ultimately you're just tossing out the garbage that you take on ever since you were born. Some of it may be useful to get by. But the gap between who we are and who we think we are is so incredibly big and causes so much war and suffering in the world. Better to do the work and toss it out. The world and you is better off this way.
Fear is a good sign! Welcome it.
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Yes same. for me it's clear that it's touching parts of a trauma, due to the context and some details in the rituals. I have only manages to read like 1/5th of books at a time, then have to put it away for some time until I actually feel I want to continue reading.