I'm working on my list. I know I encountered medical staff who impacted my future.
I don't consciously remember any of this, our interactions were pre-my modern memory.
Is it worth trying to recapitulate these encounters - knowing I don't have any memory of them, though I do have strong opinions & thoughts about them, so many years later, or is that a waste of time?
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I'd say cross that bridge if and when you get there. It is recommended to start with the most recent people/interactions and work backwards.
I saw the "start with the most recent" - I've been doing but I've been adding people to my list & when there's a strong though obsession, trying the recapitulation breath while remembering my encounters with them.
Go visit the hospital first, so that you at least have a tiny "hook". If you can't visit, there are pictures on the internet.
Or ask people who were there for details, without alerting them to your bizarre goal of going back in time.
Anything you can track down, or even try to track down during recapitulation, moves your assemblage point a tiny bit.
Helping to keep it in the center when you engage in other sorcery practices.
If it stays in the center (doesn't get pushed left or right by strong emotional reactions to things), it's easier to move it along the J curve.
So all things you can think of to recapitulate, are useful.
UNLESS you sit there fantasizing and thinking and running your internal dialogue every 2 minutes, in which case, recap produces extremely poor results.
Like we've seen in our leaders.
They never got to the point of seeing any magic at all using recap (or anything else), despite giving our community the impression they're the masters of "emptiness" through recap.
It's odd that people don't read the books, notice you should be going back in time using recap, and ask why they don't?
I suppose that's cult peer pressure.
I'm facing that on Facebook right now, with 2 men commenting who just don't want to accept the idea that all 4 Cleargreens have gone bad, and attending their workshops is actually harmful to people.
They all made up fake magical passes and mix them with real ones, something a new person can't detect.
So why don't people ask Cleargreen, "Why is there no magic???"
But then, no one asks the guru why in his book people were godlike, but he's such a lazy, greedy putz.
Thanks for the suggestions
Interesting how you mention visiting the hospital. I gave birth myself, as well as assisted many other women giving birth at the same hospital I was born in. Each birth I attended felt so personal, and I had all these experiences and sudden understandings while I was there. I often felt like I was in a dream world there, which was certainly helped by births at night.
I would wander the dark night hallways while my client was having personal quiet birth time. I was always drawn to it, never saw anyone. I would lay down and dream, having the most vivid dreams. It felt like I was receiving messages from someone. Ahhh, it makes so much sense now! That was 15 years ago.