Recent recapitulation session, working through a set of memorable people I met at a conference. One person within a second of starting the inhalation, I physically recoiled and felt agitated. I remembered details about her work which agitated me. I tried to do the breath again and recoiled again. I removed my sleep mask and searched online for images of the conference, trying to find things that would spur my memory, as I could remember details but not the name of her art piece.
Seeing images of the event reminded me about other people I met and I wrote them down too. One of them was a guy who designed his own instrument. For a few minutes I remembered playing his instrument and wrote him down, remembering a few details about setting & the experience of the instrument.
A few minutes later after looking at more pictures I felt certain I had not played that instrument, after all, I went the year after he presented it, I had just watched videos about it. I couldn't find my receipt for the conference so I couldn't prove that.
As I'm writing this, I don't know which it is. I tried to go through a recapitulation of the instrument maker and my imagined experience - doing the sweeping breath until I got smoother breaths both ways twice in a row then onto the next person.
Should I be recapitulating people I'm not certain I even met and might just have a strong imagined memory of?
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It'll get even more confusing, if an inorganic being takes an interest.
They can inject themselves not only into your sight, but into your memories.
Since memories are also just a flow of sensations and feelings from the emanations.
Easy to understand that, if you consider lucid dreaming, where you stop, wonder if it's a dream, but can remember your life there for weeks, so that you believe it can't possibly be a dream.
But if you just step away from whatever it is you are doing at the time, in that dream, it all vanishes and you realize that was a "false memory".
All of our memories are false memories in that sense.
Because there are 600 cyclic being versions of us, to which we could change.
Each with a whole lifetime of memories.
However, I'd expect an IOB "incursion" into memories during recap, to be at the moment, not later on.
We just don't have enough experience with this so far, due to lazy practitioners not having actually done much at all as far as recap goes.
I did try to help a Russian women who was having false memories which lasted even after she wasn't practicing anything anymore.
She got kidnapped by a bad Dzogchen cult, and that was the end of her chances to learn anything real.
They told her to "serve others" as her "path" to Buddha greatness.
"Stepping away" seems to be a motif in the sorcery practices. Dark room - stepping away from regular senses & habits. Recapitulation - stepping away from "now" to intentionally revisit memories (not very often done in regular society).
Not-doings, stepping away from greed and gain.
But really, it's just about the emanations. Anything you can do to quiet down ones you aren't deliberately focusing your awareness into, is a good sorcery technique.
In the lineages, people even had to go on sabbaticals from being themselves.
Carlos as a fry cook, Taisha as a homeless woman, and I suppose Florinda living with the amazonians.
that all sounds vague and odd, until you8 reach silent knowledge daily and try to figure out why some days are super magical, and others only normal levels of magical.
I suppose a picture...
https://preview.redd.it/ohffsevo6k3d1.png?width=1024&format=png&auto=webp&s=3301120ef2772a0a9e9028dc07899fbcae7685f6
On a "normal" day you see all that swirling stuff at the bottom.
But on a "good" day, a video in the air is absolutely real looking. Sharp and clear.
Like the doorway.
You come to find out, the difference is how well you can refrain from your attention wandering onto the blue line level of reality.
It can still wander there, even if you achieve the silence levels needed to reach silent knowledge.
Thus sorcerers get really weird as they go further, finding ways to pretend not to be what they are through stalking. Becoming obsessed with recapitulation in such great detail, they actually go back in time looking for more to find.
I hope we can get out of the stalking part of that, due to having stalked our assemblage point movement the entire distance of the J curve, nightly, for years.
That has to exceed the benefits of a dented apprentice becoming a fry cook in arizona.
Buddhists Conceit
I couldn't resist, so we might be invaded...
This time, we'll know where it came from.
Who knows if the Eagle makes a difference between lived experiences and imagined experiences. You don’t have enough time on this Earth to review every aspect of your experiences anyway. Go where the ”juice” is. Start with emotional experiences to learn the feeling of de-juicing a memory. The structured lists help to keep focus on a person or a context and the juiciest memories in that area will come to you. Withstand the urge to jump to associated memories without any juice in them. It easily becomes mind wandering instead of recapitulation.
Sounds sensible, thanks.