When I first noticed Athina's post, I started realizing I was seeing quivering spots in the air around me. I powered off my computer and did 15 minutes of lifesaver pass.
After that was over, and the entire room was filled with fog, I dumped out everything from my closet (it's still on the floor right now) and sat inside, while holding the door closed with my fingertips. After a while of seeing bright points of light flowing around me, I let go of the door (too tired), it swung open, and I saw a cloud of black flecks in semi-darkness. I played with them for a while, my hands were misshapen while inside of the cloud.
I eventually left the improvised darkroom, and went to lie down in my bed with my silence stones. I started gazing at the ceiling like I would during the day, except right away I saw a glimpse of a green field with a blue sky (the picture is close, but the AI refused to make it look like Microsoft's desktop image, probably copyright) and things went absolutely crazy from there.
Soon after, on the right side of my vision, I saw green trees and pink soil, but somehow I managed to rotate it so it was the right way round. I also saw demonic looking mouths and sexy women in this forest. Then, I closed my eyes, and was streaming through stars, but I saw a shadow in front of me that looked like a woman with a bobcut.
I made sure to re-open my eyes, and I saw an ocean in front of me, and I was made to dive into it. In the ocean, I saw a trench, which was bright green, surrounded by blue coral. After that, I got too tired to continue (it's been two hours, which is far longer than I am used to, usually 30 minutes tops).
This is about all I can remember.
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I'm surprised your dreaming attention lasted that long!
And also consider La Gorda's claim that "NO ONE has enough dreaming attention to do it everyday!"
Except they were charging up with sunlight glitter as I recall, so maybe she meant, without charging up.
I managed to not resist it, somehow...
Also, my record for daylight gazing was 6 hours straight, after which the world started vibrating and I almost puked but I managed to splash cold water on my face.
Do you have any tips to avoid self-pity or self-importance now?
There's no way to do it.
All you can do is move your assemblage point far enough that "self" becomes temporarily meaningless.
Trying to battle with it while in the river of shit, only gets you up onto a poorly constructed raft. Still floating on feces and urine.
Don Juan seems to have implied you could battle with self-importance, but if you understand the context, that was just a boy scout story to keep Carlos entertained. Because meanwhile, in secret, the real teaching was taking place using the Nagual's blow.
While telling Carlos how to escape the river of shit with his actions, he was actually yanking him out for a while with a giant hook, and letting him look around on dry land. But then, he put him back and erased his memory.
So the idea that you can "fight self-importance" is highly mistaken.
Cholita likes to draw that situation with the river, and people trying to escape it on floating devices.
Naturally, in her pictures she's made it to the shore (naked), but is dead.
The virgin sacrifice.
If she were sane, I'd encourage her to oil paint those, to sell in Hollywood.
She already knows all the gallery owners.
So just keep doing my best to keep up the practices. Gotcha.
There's a tiny bit more to it than that.
Eventually you'll know what it feels like, when your assemblage point has moved past "self".
And then soon after that, you'll dread self pity. It becomes almost like a persistent illness you can't get rid of.
And THEN is why you can try to figure out how to get rid of it.
But it'll just be by moving your assemblage point during the day.
Not by specific means in your ordinary life.
Don Juan liked to stretch to move his assemblage point.
You learn tricks like that.
Most are built into the Tensegrity. Hidden there by Carlos.
That's how the posts should work to practitioners. To elevate them, propell them with momentum to move their assemblage points more and experience undeniable magic.
For beginners, this should obviously show the power of our intent.
This was a grande intent gift that proves that as many people get the momentum from other practicioners progress and USE IT, the better they get at it. Just like on your case!
Eventually we have builed an energetic mass that makes all this possible. 🔥
Thank You! This sounds genuine🙏, were the experiences such as diving in the ocean for example real feeling like doing the same in your physical body?
it's funny, it wasn't entirely real-looking (partially since I still knew I was tucked in), but it was very real feeling (in terms of emotions). When I saw the entire ocean before me, I immediately felt a tremendous sense of thalassophobia, I didn't know at all what could happen. It was just a huge scene overlaying my vision.
Thank You