Hi guys, exciting to be here with you.
Long story short. I just discovered Carlos Castaneda’s books couple days back.
The more i read them and look here for more info, tbe more I am confused.
i have this “gift” of seeing stuff behind my closed eyes. Usually nothing fancy, just colors, blobs, specks of light here and there. Sometimes straight up weird faces.
Is it something i should focus on? It kicks in pretty instantly. I know it was advised to focus on these fractals and force inner silence.
Is it inner silence, like complete silence, or just silence like in the forest with all the birds chirping? BECAUSE:
I also have this weird thing happening. For a very long time when I listen to someone speak long enough, stuff begins to happen. As far as I know it is the second attention. But the mind is not absolutely silent all the time. Sometimes there is an image, sound, emotion etc. So it does not have to be complete utter silence?
Also the darkroom practice. Weird stuff happens in the dark for me. I was always afraid of the dark because it does not have to be pitch dark to see colors and auras and patterns. But that is an ordinary thing right?
Now I do not wish to flex or anything, i would like to remain humble and modest, i have heard about having “immense power” and stuff like that from superficial scam-like ezofreaks so i decided to stay humble and not feel special in any way. No offense to anyone, it is not aimed towards people in this group.
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Some have an easier time shifting their assemblage point, than others.
Conversely, there were several apprentices of Don Juan, who were training along with Castanada, that were incapable of moving there assemblage points on their own.
And both of those skills/deficits can degrade/improve with neglect/time.
Sustaining your efforts is of paramount importance, regardless of which camp you fall into.
When my eyes are closed I focus on the area in front of me, trying not to dream and when I focus on my entire field of view It feels expansive and I notice that its a big circle which moves around and can be perfectly round but isn't usually. I cant hold it or make it appear again and my eyes strain real bad because im looking near sighted to see it up front close to me. I dont meditate often and I have never read carlos's books but is this what moving the assemblage point is?
I sometimes see very small shiny dark spots and apparently you can communicate with them is this true?
One common misunderstanding with new people is that we're just trying to "see weird stuff".
So they don't follow any of the paths laid out in here.
They just sit in darkness, "looking for their greatness".
Or whatever they're thinking.
Partly that's due to brainwashing by fake magical systems which give the idea you can reach a "goal" and be all done. Something they do, to create leaders who have that fake authority to charge people money and send a percentage of the cash to the top people. Leaders who will need their endorsement before they can open their own franchise. So it's a system designed to self-perpetuate, using the myth of permanent accomplishments.
Those prejudices don't apply at all to sorcery, which NEVER leads to any permanent state. In fact, we're trying to escape those entirely!
We are in instead trying to duplicate the very thing discovered 8000 years ago by the Olmec seers.
Because the way Reality actually works, you have to follow people from the past to get anywhere useful.
You can't "find your own way" more than a hundred feet along the path of sorcery, but the path itself is actually 1000 miles long. To the destination we seek.
Some might start out with talent, but if they don't pick which path they want to pursue daily, it won't do them any good.
And sometimes, the ability to easily "see weird stuff" doesn't translate at all, to being helpful along the paths we have.
I can think of two examples.
A woman who can easily see hypnagogic images after smoking pot, who decided that must be the same as we are doing, so she had an advantage.
What she didn't realize was, those hypnagogic images are tied to a position of the assemblage point just 4 inches down your back (the "green station" on this map):
And it turned out, that ability didn't translate to any advantage at all. In fact, it caused her to devalue green station effects, so she wasn't willing to work hard to go any further.
The other was fed LSD as a child, to keep her entertained. He mother and father were pretty horrible.
As an adult, she could close her eyes and see dreams just about anytime.
But when she tried our "darkroom" practice, she got nothing else.
Never saw a puff. Never saw an inorganic being.
She was pretty much at no advantage at all.
So what DOES give people an advantage?
Youth is one. But not too young. 16 year olds are all talk, as we've discovered.
22 years old seems an ideal age to start.
But then the older among us, might have more discipline to work everyday, and that gives them an advantage. They already realize they're doomed, and that all they were told about what makes a good life was wrong.
And I'll add, if you learned a musical instrument and found you could force yourself to practice daily, that's an advantage for learning sorcery. Or if you regularly practiced a sport. Not because you had to, but because you wanted to.
If you can learn on your own, and don't insist you have to go find an official school teacher in order to gain knowledge of new things, that's an advantage.
And the biggest advantage of all was told to us by Don Juan, the teacher of our teacher Carlos.
He said that the orphan kids licking the plates at the outdoor restaurant in Mexico city, who were allowed to do that as long as they didn't cause trouble, were the ones who might someday become sorcerers.
Don Juan said that the wealthy businessmen who dined there, didn't have a chance.
They didn't hate their normal reality enough to try something as obviously crazy as trying to escape from it.
So pick a path, practice daily, and insist on nearly daily progress which you could describe to someone, if you wanted to.
I see at least 1 new "mind boggling" thing each day, but after years and years of it I've come to realize how far from the truth we've been led. And that "revelations" aren't worth much, because there's so many more of them that you have to discover.
Darkroom's goal is not to see weird stuff, but to rebuild your energy body, using Tensegrity, learn to switch back and forth with it in order to learn what "the abstract" is, then learn to move your assemblage point into final alignment with that of your energy body, so that "seeing" becomes possible.
Then the goal is to walk off into new worlds, in your physical body. Or so it seems at the time.
Recapitulation is another path. The goal is to become able to view a video in the air in front of you, of any point in your life all the way back to birth, and the zip into the vision in the air, and look around in the past.
After that ability is gained, you learn to zip into anyone else's past.
Even animals.
Gazing is also a viable path.
With gazing, the goal is indeed to "see weird stuff", but to see it as a result of your internal dialogue being shut off.
You use the weird stuff sights, as feedback for how much of your internal dialogue you've removed.
However, we don't really know if gazing alone gets you to that "red station" on the map, where shapeshifting takes place.
My experience is that people who focus on gazing, don't last long. They give up, even if they get the gazing to work a little.
No one in the lineages took gazing as a path, for more than for an exercise in how to focus the awareness, using silence.