I don't know where to post this, but I thought this subreddit would be most interesting.
When I did my recapitulation (about ten years ago) I had questions about time spent alone, in addition to time spent with others. I thought I had a pretty good memory of my childhood, but lately, I have memories emerging from my youth and they have their own storyline. It is all about the role of hunger in my life. It closely aligns with experiencing life alone and this is not just my childhood, but also my adulthood.
My mother was a single parent and we moved to an apartment complex when I was about 6 or 7. My mother was never home and at night my brother (8 or 9 at the time) would go hang with his friends leaving me alone in the apartment. I don't think I knew how to turn on the living room light, so I would sit in the dark all alone until bedtime.
Hunger came mostly in the summer when we were out of school. I would crash summer camp and eat. Tax returns were always two carts of food and endless eating. But after that was gone, it was baloney sandwiches and fish sticks and mac and cheese. There's more, but I think you get the idea. Other times include trying to be a vegetarian, college, layoffs.
When I look back now, I feel a huge sense of empathy for the hungry one.
Seeing this helped me realize I was mostly alone in my childhood because of negligent parents. My mom died about two years ago and I was able to drop a lot of resentment I had toward her and I think that loosed the nut that was keeping this perspective locked away.
Does anyone else have long-term payoffs from the recapitulation? I have a whole new perspective of my childhood.
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The stated purpose of this subreddit is to aid in restoring the reputation of Carlos Castaneda and the knowledge he imparted, which means we are sticking to what really works, as proven by direct experience by long-practicing members. We need to make clear our intent to move away, as a community, from the mistakes others have made. Content that is at-odds with this purpose will, upon review, be removed.
What you just wrote comes across like a long running therapy session, and as annoying as Carlos must have sounded to DJ when tasked to find memorable events.
I don’t think you worked hard enough at it, because you are not reporting any magic. I think you only barely scratched the surface. Must work harder!
These are memorable events.
😂
Many would argue that overly humanistic events are not memorable. At least not from the perspective of a sorcerer.
In fact, we must extract ourselves from the weight of being human, in order to reach beyond all that we know ....which is what imprisons us.
Hey, I think you are confusing the sorcery Recapitulation technique with some kind of therapy or introspection.
The Recapitulation we practice in here was taught by Carlos Castaneda, and comes from a very old lineage of seers.
It's designed to unfix the assemblage point from the ordinary position, and allow it to shift to a new one.
Producing authentic magic. Visible and undeniable.
You can see in the subreddit the kind of results you should expect when it's working.
Any other approach to this technique will cause you to deceive yourself with false progress.
I followed the instructions and recapitulated for nine months, an hour and a half a day. Had the war book and everything.
I say this is a part of the recapitulation because the memories appear as images that can be unpacked.