Self-pity as the enemy

(You screaming at your self-pity)

It's funny how cozy it is inside of the river of shit. It can be compared to being lazy in bed and cuddling yourself with procrastination of avoiding life situations and binge watching some TV show you have watched a thousand of times.

What a disgusting feeling

The problem with the self-pity or living in the mind/merchant mindset (same thing) is that it tricks you to belive that this is the best way of living and it's actually not that bad. Oh boy, we couldn't be more wrong!

The problem with that fact is that its very very hard to get out of self-pity because that's all we know! That's the only reality that we are familiar with since our parents and many many teachers aligned us to be in. So when something or somebody tells you that there are thousands of worlds out there, even If you shut down your merchant mind and feel with your heart it's true, how the hell do you discover those other worlds if all you know is how to cuddle yourself with inner dialogue of how cozy self-pity is?

That's a big issue. Yet, not impossible to solve. You need to hook yourself to intent of thousand of sourcerers and you need to pull yourself out of this warm dirty shit hole you have been swimming all your life.

You can imagine intent as a rope and your will power as your hands and muscles pulling yourself out of this. This is bigger than any motivation or any shitty desire of wanting things, it's has to be a will for freedom! There is one nemesis that is your enemy who keeps you away from freedom.

There is no way you could see your enemy unless you got at least a small glimpse of little tiny freedom, perhaps even the beginning green zone is enough to compare. If you get out of self-pity enough times, maybe you will get fed up with it and will declare war on your self-pity. That's the battle! That's the warriors path! Not reading and repeating qoutes thousand of times, thinking you became a sourcerer like some russian users in my private messages! It's a real war between real you and self-pity blue line where the 99.99% of the humans reside in.

The goal is to get out of blue line enough times and have something to compare to, so you know are a slave.

I would like to introduce you with 3 main foundations that can keep you out of self pity outside of your practice time, which will be essential for you to save just a tiny little bit of energy to keep pulling yourself out of dirt shit hole you live in and keep stably practicing. Remember everytime u do less than 3 hours of practice a day, you are robbing yourself.

Don Juan's qoute:

"I am already given to the power that rules my fate. And I cling to nothing, so I will have nothing to defend. I have no thoughts, so I will see. I fear nothing, so I will remember myself. Detached and at ease, I will dart past the Eagle to be free."

As Don Juan said, once warrior realizes those 3 trivial things he is on the way to will power that is needed to fight billions of humans supporting river of shit and join those sourcerers that are departing to a long adventure. In the core those things will allow you to hook to intent and shed all of your useless motivations, desires and shit just in general that make you sink in the shit hole.

1. Realization of death.

I would say this is top priority and maybe that's why in the books it was listed as first. Most people think they know they going to die, but that's just another self delusion. I killed a mosquito another day, and I realized how much we are equal. Just the same way I smashed him to death against my cupboard, the same way death will catch you one day and you won't be expecting it.

Do yourself a favor and go the grave yard and walk around and read tombstones. Some of them you will see are 80 year olds, but majority are 40-50s and a lot of 20s-40s. You might even find a tombstone with pictures of those who grief for the dead one and in one of those pictures you will see yourself. This could be you! How glad you should be that you are still alive! Rule#1 keep your death extremely close, remember death at least couple times a day, and realize how real it is.

1. Letting go of desires.

This a good one. I saw people coming to this sub looking for money, or mostly attention from others. Most of us don't realize that things we want come from stupid templates from our life, most basic recap will help you fish at least one or 2 desires that came from some memory in the past. So do you really want it? Or was it that jealousy in that moment, or was it your mother who was hopeless to expierence rich life on the back of her son? Regardless of whatever it is, you can compare it to being stuck with your clothes on the sharp edge of something. You trying to walk but the shirt on your back keeps pulling because it's stuck on that sharp edge. That's exactly the feeling, except for its not your shirt but your spirit, getting pulled by a stupid want that will never satisfy your thirst! To move forward you need to learn not to cling to things and ideas.

3.Letting the force carry you.

This is one is my favorite. Most people planing things and running schedules just like they are in control of things. You couldn't be more wrong! You can find numerous of qoutes from the books, including
"the warrior cannot change his destiny with all of his tears" or " the warrior takes his destiny as is"

There is a force all around us and inside us that carry our lives like a ripped tree leaf carried by the wind. The only thing that you are control of is your own perception, and maybe if you are really can control intent (powerfull sourcerer) that's when you can really change things. Otherwise if you destined to end up in Paris, you will end up there either dragged by hair or by arriving there yourself willingly. Therefore stop running the rat race, you are in wheel, nothing will really change drastically. We are all puppets of our destiny and seers are those who can see the strings and manipulate it.

Don Juan says sources don't even make decisions, the just go with the flow and when there is a slim chance they feel it and grab it. It's like universe throws those chances time to time to "improve" your life you just need to be sensitive enough to see it. Notice how I put qoutes on improve, because if you are still self-pity that "improvement" may seem like a downgrade, when In reality it's carrying where you have to be.

Those 3 things can you keep out of river shit, depending how impeccably you are using it day to day. UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCES DOES THIS REPLACE HARD WORK OF PRACITCE. or in other words of you pulling yourself out of shit hole, nobody will do it for you.

Build your energy body with tensegrity and let it show you the circus you live in day to day basis, wearing a red nose and failling in love with a bearded woman. (LOL dan killed me with this example)