ld like to share a noob update to my first post “experiences with inner silence” under Gazing. As gazing is what I primarily use to achieve inner silence - I seem to have the most success in low light with a feature to gaze at; preferably trees, weather or sky.
Aside from a single fleeting dual perception of a here and there, and flying shadow doodads and blobs, until the other night I haven’t had much accomplishment to share. Until now.
Attempting to turn off my inner dialogue, I was gazing out my vehicles passenger window while it rained. I used the street light reflected in scattered rain drops on my passenger window as focal point for my attention, silenced my inner dialogue and unfocus my eyes. As I got quieter a pattern in the rain drops began to emerge; the side profile of a human head, and as I held my inner silence the rains drops fully formed into a 3D female head complete with pony tail that detached from the window, turned to me nodded, smiled and winked! The perception lasted more than a few seconds - I didn’t break concentration/silence or lose my unfocus, and after the wink, the image casually transitioned back to being a random pattern of raindrops on my window. It was then I was wow’d!! Shook my head, broke silence and concentration….
I’ve never seen or experienced anything (hallucination or otherwise) like it under the influence of psychedelics, or at any other period of my life. What I still find to be really interesting is the quality of realness that was equal to anything I see day to day. It wasn’t blurry, or cartoony, it was just a really natural looking head made of raindrops. Like it’s always been here? It’s difficult to describe the realness of something assembled from raindrops.
After weeks of practicing inner silence and gazing, I think this is my first significant change in levels of perception/awareness, or dare I say, shift/move of my AP? Before this event, I was starting to think nothing much was going to happen for me, but I was proceeding to practice without any expectations and honestly enjoying the silence and having control over my inner dialogue and thoughts.
I practice daily and I don’t track time or how long I’ve been silent for. I think focusing on that would distract me. I’m just trying to achieve inner silence without getting hung up on milestones or AP positions. I’m trying to make turning off my internal dialogue natural and I can approach the end goal, combing inner silence with the Tensegrity passes in Darkroom as natural progression.
I grabbed this raindrop/waterdrop image off the internet to show what I saw, but it lacks the detail that I was witnessing. Ya……it’s really horrible attempt at duplicating what I saw…..
Any advice is always appreciated.
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No, you are still a touch early for this to be a "significant change". It sounds more like an intent gift to me.
Intent will make things happen from time to time for you to keep you on the path.
When stuff is happening nearly daily, then it's a significant change.
Keep at it though! Intent likes everyone enough to give them a shove from time to time.
Best advice is to remember that at first we get gifts from "The Spirit" because we've pointed ourselves down a lesser taken road, and that path to explore other realities freely is pleasing to "The Eagle".
It likely wants all parts of the dark sea of the emanations to be glowing with awareness at some point, so that it leaves latent awareness permanently echoing there.
Which is how "seeing" takes place. Latent awareness in the emanations, from past usage.
There's even a speciality form of witch called a "curiosa", who's very purpose in life is to light up places that have never seen awareness before. They sew cobwebs between realities so that others can follow those.
Both the spirit and the eagle arise from the latent awareness in the emanations, which is why there's two confusing names for the entity which gives us magical gifts.
But intent gifts are meant to wake you up, and then it's up to you to actually take that path.
And one mistake people can make is to have seen too many guru style people claim they reached some amazing achievement, and now they're "enlightened". And can accept your charge card for payment for their "amazing me" enlightenment workshops.
Or people listen to a "master" of any variety or religion.
Those are just con artists.
This path is very long, in terms of how far you can go. You never really "arrive".
And you have to do amazing things daily at some point, or it will be too long of a path for a single lifetime.
Seeing as how we don't get any more lifetimes, despite what the Hindus made up, the bottom line is that you need to see stuff like this 20 times a day.
But instead of being a burden or a worry, seeing so much is quite pleasant!
I stole your post for instagram and facebook.
Thats an amazing insight into the core concepts, of Spirit and Eagle. I like that you pointed out the difference between the two. You may have also highlighted something I’ve been confused with all these years;
- are Spirit and Intent the same thing?
- does Intent come from the spirit, is it a connection to the spirit?
- awareness resides in the emanations, can we say that the dark sea of awareness is a body of awareness seperate from emanations?
- do you have a definition for latent awareness?
**this knowledge is very sophisticated and complex, and the techniques so advanced they appear bizarre, yet they work.
I’ve been 9 weeks practicing silence and gazing with very minimal changes to my ordinary realty. Only now can I say something happened. My wording on the event is a bit misleading, I wasn’t suggesting I had an AP move, so much as querying this group. If it’s a gift from Intent; then I had a change in perception or awareness that allowed me to see the raindrop image? What was the raindrop image, an IOB or something else that resides in the emanations?
I don’t mind you using my post on FB. I’m an anon here and I actually don’t have FB or any other social media cause I’m not that social.
"The Spirit" arises from the intent of the dark sea of awareness.
I suppose you could say, that the harmonics of the emanations, the latent awareness which flow in there in the past, causes "tendencies".
No theory there, you get to experiment with that for hours a day if you reach Silent Knowledge, and don't tire yourself out during the day.
But probably 20 minutes is long enough to play with the latent intent, and see that it forms things you didn't quite expect.
If you take the sum total of all of the emanations, it gives rise to "the spirit".
A general "tendency" for things to push you in the direction you want to go, just the way that during Silent Knowledge, you can gaze at just a few emanations, and watch those select others, until you have a full blown object or scene or entity.
I suppose "The Eagle" is merely what some seer saw and now we're stuck with it.
It represents "The Spirit" in a form you can relate to as a living being.
But it all arises from intent.
Not your intent, but the force of intent itself.
The force of alignment.
No, it doesn't. Awareness flows through the emanations, and they send back feelings in response.
But in fact, if it were possible to remove all awareness from the multi-verse, the emanations would still be there.
You can intuit this by understanding that most of the dark sea of awareness has never been explored at all, so it doesn't even have latent awareness in it.
It's what causes the select of an emanation located next to the one glowing, rather than another which might be located even closer.
God is an example of latent awareness, as is heaven.
You can actually learn to visit both on demand, but that's "practical magic" and a deal breaker if you deviate yourself that much.
You'd probably turn yourself into some kind of religious leader who believes "the UFOs are coming to take us home".
Thank you, you’re clearing up misunderstandings/misinterpretations Ive had, probably for years.
Holy shit. And to follow up on Emergency’s post on gazing… I had been thinking about this. The type of witch. Couldn’t remember the name. And second post in. Here it is. Thank you, intent.
Cholita could become a curiosa.
But for now she's just a normal type witch, who uses magic to improve her own life.
This weekend I bought her a Blue Java banana tree for her little paradise garden.
Not sure yet if she'll keep it. It might end up in the trash, or if she's being nice, moved to a side of the house she never visits.
I'd ask her, but she's been hiding for the last few days.
Whether she keeps it depends on whether she decides the plant is an attempt to mock her, or a gift.
"Banana" is a risky plant to get her...
I got it because the first time I tried to remote view her in Mexico (she recently ran away for 4 months), she was walking by some banana trees being grown commercially. I'm hoping it'll trigger her to comment on whether that actually took place.
Just because you see it in Silent Knowledge, doesn't mean it actually happened in this version of reality.
Sometimes people don't like to hear that. They want alternate realities to be the same as our normal reality.
And forget the words of Carlos when he explained that the Nagual's blow pushes people into heightened awareness, but that to interact in that state, all practitioners have to be in HA.
And that what happens might not take much time in terms of normal reality.
So a week of interactions after the nagual's blow, might actually only have been 1 minute of total "real world time".
Easy to understand if you practice sleeping dreaming and finding your hands, because often when you begin to become rational and wonder if you should look at your hands, doubting it could possibly be a dream, you can remember years of history of the place you are dreaming about. Which convinces you it can't possibly be a dream.
That also becomes clear when gazing at infinity using Silent Knowledge.
You might see a "video in the air", and you might also be sucked into one, so that you're suddenly standing inside the video you were watching while practicing.
And if you get sent back after just a few seconds, you'll often have picked up weeks of "history".
For that "video in the air".
Just to drive home the point, time flows differently in other realities, and Silvio Manuel even disappeared for years, exploring another place.
But he only perceived it as a week or two, as I recall.
Thanks Dan—will be interesting to see if it prompts anything from her.
What do you mean by she could become one?
Is this a type of witch that you become by learning certain skills, or is it something that is kind of more innate to one’s disposition and energetic structure? (like for example, carlos was recognized by don juan to be a certain way and to fulfill a certain role, because of what his energy body looked like when DJ was seeing him)
It's a matter of "navigating" for real.
Awake.
That's where, fully awake, you gaze at silent knowledge, locate another realm, and allow yourself to be sucked into it for exploring.
Or if you insist on being dramatic about it, you leap through a portal into that realm.
Or walk though. I've done that too, a few times. But usually I'm afraid the portal will go away so I leap.
That's actually a very deliberate practice. Not something a witch would normally decide to be doing, unless she were shown how through another person who can do that.
Cholita would have to decide it can be done, and figure out how to do it.
With no one telling her about it, and her not discussing it with me.
Or, I'd have to become good enough to grab her in the second attention and take her somewhere distant, and then make sure she can remember it when she's back to normal.
What makes Cholita suitable for becoming one, is that she's a collector of places she's visited. She has a list on the wall in her little studio.
If she manages to add "Venus" to the list, then I'd expert her to soon realize we aren't limited to this galaxy.
And she doesn't have any actual ties to this world. Her phone seems to have stopped working a while back, and she didn't actually miss having it.
This makes sense to me, thanks Dan.
Looks like Brook from One Piece