I had the breakthrough realization of just how serious this path is. what it really means to walk the way of the impeccable warrior. of the sorcerer.
You have to give up everything. You have to become an alien living in a human form, and keep your distance at all times.
You must preserve your energy at all costs (your awareness/perception) by never indulging in this world. never getting too involved. any energetic entanglement relies solely on recapitulation to unravel.
which explains why I’ve had such an aversion to recapitulation practice. because I can see myself getting wrapped up in shit and then unraveling it for my whole life. And if you don’t have the discipline to do recap for the rest of your life; whilst making profit and not just breaking even—then sorcery isn’t for you.
It really captures the essence of what sorcery is. It really is the only complete path. because shedding your energetic entanglements—your human involvement—leads directly to the unbound assemblage point. to freed energy.
And I’ve come to understand just how cold this path is because of it. How far you must travel. alone, with only your awareness. It can drive you crazy, or break you down if you’re not careful.
And if you take the path of least resistance, you reap the rewards of that path. just like building muscle—you will never dodge the reality that you must exert more effort if you want more power. You must exert more discipline. more impeccability. If you want to preserve your awareness.
And that brings us to the perpetual dilemma of living as a perceptual being, in human form. How does one walk this path and continuously remain poised. sustain the activation of their psychic muscles, or drop the weight on their head.
That’s what’ll really drive you mad. getting deep into sorcery… returning to blue-line reality… and then realizing how much of a mess you’ve got to clean up now, If you want to remain a sorcerer.
Personally, I find myself leaning more and more towards a desocialized, hunter-gatherer, self-reliant lifestyle, If I want to live as impeccably as possible. to save myself the trouble of declutterring.
but for the love of god, does this world make it grudgingly hard to keep its shit out of your system. To live unsocialized. To engage the world without getting entangled in it. and still utilize it for what you need. That’s been my primary struggle.
And if you try to walk this path without the utmost discipline, you’ll naturally become an inventory warrior. a pretender. a fantasizer. Just like I did. because that’s how our human mind copes with our inability to discipline our sorcery. It writes a disney film about its happier-ever-after where it gets to indulge in humanity whilst at the same time being an “impeccable warrior”.
The price of infinity is your humanity. The price of your humanity is infinity. Live a short happy life of blind human hedonism, like the moth that flys to the flame just to be vaporized. or be the moth that flys to the moon. The one that sheds its form to travel the infinite reaches of space.
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Hello.
This is a practice oriented site, and taking that perspective your post consists of pure mental ramblings.
You are young, but we have been fighting the pretenders in our community for a long time.
People feel inspired and just assume they can generate "understandings" of sorcery.
Sorcery can only be seen, as a result of hard work.
It is not philosophy or poetry.
It's a very specific path, wich we are mapping on a "J Curve diagram" shown by Carlos.
It is not metaphorical, but technical.
Don't worry. Many of us got initially interested in that side of the books, but you will have to know the current state of our community if you want to participate and behave appropriately here.
It’s more of a call for help than anything. It came out that way because I was hoping to receive something personally tailored to help me along my path.
If I may explicate personally, I’m specifically fighting to be empty and stay empty. It’s easy when I cut most social contact and do long periods of recap. but it’s unsustainable because I keep getting sucked into social involvements with people. relationships. energetic entagelements.
and it’s gonna get worse as I become self-reliant and have to get more involved with the river of shit, which is why I’m asking for help. I’m stumped with nothing but distractions. and petty tyrants, which can help, but i’m falling to them.
So in a practical, practice oriented standpoint, from the perspective of impeccability/personal development, I’m “using” people to refine my approach to the world, and to learn where my shortcomings are. But I think where I fall short is in two aspects: I indulge in social folly, and I am failing to do depthful and adequate recapitulation.
If there’s anything you can add to my personal situation, it’s greatly appreciated. I’m particularly interested in how others live their lives here, which is hard information to get, however helpful it may be. Like in a rolemodel way. I struggle without having inspiration.
I just have trouble asking for assistance in this community without feeling like a burden. or literaly being a nuisance. I can’t just ask people to give me windows into their lives. I need to meet people, the right people, and I fear it may never happen outside the reddit group.
Ok, listen.
There are many useful and important advices we emphasize in this place.
None of them are the ones you mentioned you are practicing. Like avoiding social interaction, trying to be empty or being impeccable.
While trying to do those, you deceive yourself with false progress wich has no relation to actual sorcery.
Sorcery is a result of stopping the internal dialogue, and it's something SO HARD that needs a regular practice.
Did you read about Dakroom, the waking dreaming practice that use visible magic as an indicator of progress?
That's what we do in here, to get Carlos Castaneda sorcery to work.
Keep reading in the subreddit.
Okay. I will keep trying. And emphasize silence with results. I just need the results to carry over into my human worldly life, or else it ends up consuming my attention.
But its all just self pity under the surface. obsessive grief and laziness.
I struggle with dissociation and ungroundedness from reality and stuck with a man who likes to abuse it to hurt me. Drove me psychotic but i’m coming back. Thats all why i’m breaking down. but silence leads to power and power leads to transcending blue-line hell. so silence is what I will pursue.
It’s all just a lack of discipline on my part.
Taisha said intellectual pursuits are important too and Don Juan learned bookkeeping even after having spending time in literal slavery and getting shot in the chest. Pick something that you can do and practice the sorcery practices to the best of your ability.