Good morning. Yesterday, I read through the wiki and many of the posts here and decided to do my first darkroom practice. I 'awakened', as some people may term it, when I was a child. I saw colors then and, through meditation, began to see them again recently after dealing with a lot of my trauma/bad memories.
I had no idea who Mr. Castaneda was until a post through the mediumship Reddit yesterday brought me here. I know that experiences on the J-curve can vary as to when they happen where. I see purple lights, so-called phosphenes, and even these wave-like lines that seem to emanate or create tunnels or ripple-like patterns.
Meditation has brought me relatively little except that I can readily silence my inner voice at will. During the darkroom practice last night, I noticed that I could hear voices that definitely were not my internal voice. I also began receiving 'hypnogogic hallucinations' aka dreaming while I was still awake. Is this a sign I am doing this right, or is this another layer of the internal voice trying to trick me? The main voice I heard was male, and I am a woman, if that matters at all. Thank you for your time.
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Witches are weird...
Meaning, they make men jealous with their talent.
You're right on track!
Try reading about Cholita's antics. She's a witch taught by Carlos, and Florinda.
And don't miss the books written by Taisha and Florinda.
All available in pdf format for free.
You might want to try "Fairy's Pass" to see if you get lucky, and one of the Allies of Carlos takes a liking to you.
Or you might get "the other one"...
Minx.
He's a pest, but you still learn faster with him around you.
Hopefully you like squirrels.
Thank you so much for your time. I have been seeing some faces that seem to appear in my mind's eye or even right in front of my face that look to be farming fear reactions or something like that. I don't give them any reaction but acknowledge their presence. The other thing I see is the whorl once I start getting further in silence. It looks like a spinning yin-yang but in purple rather than white.
I welcome whatever experiences are to come and I will do so with a calm mind, per many of your posts. I'll try the tensegrity you recommended and will continue the books. Thank you again!
Witches are perhaps, collectors of "practicalities". Things they can use. Thus witchcraft is characterized by spell books. Those are all "tools" women might use.
Cholita does that. She's a real witch, and it's good I'm stuck taking care of her, because my male tendency is to dismiss what she does as "not on the right path".
Except, she's far more powerful than anyone I know, and runs rings around me with magic.
The men maybe are dominated by something closer to "milestones", because their biology drives them to want to dominate groups (tribes).
Women however are at a slight disadvantage for going as far as you can go, because nice they have a good collection of practical magical abilities, they might be satisfied.
It's always a lot of work to go further!
The men not as much disadvantaged in that respect, because there's an endless path of "milestones", and no single person can ever reach all of them.
But men lack actual talent...
Welcome and thank you for sharing your encouraging experiences.