Hello and thanks for having me (any groups in NYC?)

Hello, and thanks for having me.

I've been studying carlos castaneda over at prismagems teachings for about 12 years now.. still studying it..

Yesterday I finally been able to dream awake and connect myself with the nagual.. which is a big accomplishment for me as someone who doesnt dream asleep much.. still very new to it (dreaming), but im prepared and its a big step in my learning..

ive had over 100 mental hospitalizations because of a shifting assemblage point (spent more of my life in a mental hosptial inside of it than outside of it, but yeah.. still studied castaenda by mp3 while inside).. eventually i got a handle on it thanks to the warriors way and making myself inaccessible (castaneda teaching) though still got some fear in me due to stopping medications, but willing to take the consequences of it and not asking for advice on that.. still going through with it.

i live in a homeless shelter in nyc, i left the regular world because i was incompatible with it and really had no choice. life is better now actually, which is cool.

i got a crazy christ complex that caused me alot of problems over the years (castaneda says its cause of my self importance that caused me problems over the years), though i internally know that this is the design of power that will unfold as life goes on... im cool with it, hope you are..

i do music.. just released an album on spotify called "scarlet beast - jesus christ" three days ago.. not trying to self promote but trying introduce myself properly because i want to be here for awhile: i got two sites i run, scarletbeast dot com and scarletbeast dot org if you are interested. one is more music, the other i do my writings.

being in nyc and with not too much money, Im interested in finding out if anyone here is from nyc and would like to meet up or if there are any groups or such.. also interested in talking more on phone with experienced people who may be able to guide me a bit with my present state and/or share their experiences..

the current state of the world and united states concerns me alot.. im doing my best to double down on dreaming and personal power because i feel thats the path to me making a difference here.

well yeah, thats me. nice to meet you and hopefully i found a home for a bit.