in my morning daylight practice today
after the passes i made with intermediate breaks for gazing at puffs and other attractions of second attention the room started to flood and mainly the ceiling from all this..
on the ceiling i saw a big yellow cloud that had covered everything and from inside it appeared green shapes like broccoli? but it was like a clear green crystal that was constantly changing shape
Then an IOB who was present in my practice and while at first he had a form like a shadow face trying to come out through the wall, he took on a human form and observed me for a while, then after a while he raised his head to the left, showing me a sight that was appearing at that moment.
It was like a small black ball of energy that began to emit a strong light and it was like a small solar eclipse that flew into the room so vivid and real that it caught my entire attention, causing a flood of internal dialogue to erupt within me and so I lost everything I was seeing.
After I finished my practice, trying to write and create the photo so I wouldn't forget anything, I remembered a quote from Carlos's books that characterized what caused the loss of silence..
: The deepest flaw of unseasoned warriors is that they are willing to forget the wonder of what they see. They become overwhelmed by the fact that they see and believe that it's their genius that counts. A seasoned warrior must be a paragon of discipline in order to override the nearly invincible laxness of our human condition. More important than seeing itself is what warriors do with what they see.
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I noticed that the purple puffs, swirls, star-like shining dots (white/blue) and suddenly appearing portals with visions and entities attempting to draw my attention have become more pronounced. There is also this new layer of perception that I would really appreciate insight on, if possible.
It is like a texture, like seeing floaters in the physical eyes, but in darkness. However, it’s not a few floaters, but patterns. Grids, shifting movement, fingerprint like structures, sometimes even faintly glowing, intermingling tubes just being there and shifting slightly. Sometimes these patterns are very reminiscent of a matrix like overlay. As if my awareness is wrapped in this cocoon.
When I keep focusing and being silent it feels like I become aware of termination points, walls, within the darkness of my mind. Allowing these walls to expand causes liminal structures to appear. It’s really the best word to describe it right now. As if an assembly of very vast geometric patterns fills the silence.
This oftentimes fills my physical heart area with the same feeling of otherworldly dread, as when I meet some frightening entities with agency in dreams.
How do I overcome this fear? Do I just keep on focusing on the practice?
Do you see all this with open eyes, soberly following the advice and instructions given here but also in the books of Carlos and the witches? I’m just asking because what you write is very confusing (like the : as if my awareness is wrapped in this cocoon ) and I think it doesn’t relate that much to what’s really going on here..
Do you see all this with open eyes, soberly following the advice and instructions given here but also in the books of Carlos and the witches? I’m just asking because what you write is very confusing (like the : as if my awareness is wrapped in this cocoon ) and I think it doesn’t relate that much to what’s really going on here..
Eyes open, but I don’t possess the full set of advice and instructions.
Same experiences regarding the dynamic sort of "matrix" or "grid" where it feels as if our awareness is nested within it. Those same termination points / (awareness walls) - when paying attention to them feels as if we are aware of other parts of this grid that arent physically here, but still there and as real.
There is this odd unsettling otherwordly feeling alot, but I think its best to get over that and keep your mind firm. Stay cautious is my thought, for example when portals solidify dont go through them blindly. Keep getting more awareness of how this all works and go from there.
Do you see all this with open eyes, soberly following the advice and instructions given here but also in the books of Carlos and the witches?
I’m just asking because what you write is very confusing (like the : as if my awareness is wrapped in this cocoon )
and I think it doesn’t relate that much to what’s really going on here..
So don Juan warned about the book deal mind too!
I'd forgotten that.
Once an IOB "shows you something" in an effort to "teach", you have a good chance it'll turn into the dreaming emissary.
Don't forget that you get to choose their form!
I had my Ally doing a sexy high school teacher in a miniskirt.
The fringe benefit of that was she'd sit next to me on the bed later on, and there was no difference from a real beautiful woman sitting next to me.
Occasionally...
Not as often as I'd like.
Once I had asked the fairy to take a beautiful form and she became the face from the mirror in the story of Snow White.
It takes a few times to get them to take the form you want.
Maybe when you ask, you have doubt at first, so they can't tell your request, from your worries?
As usual, I see a parallel in Star Wars!
It's impossible to find the right picture, but she tries to get the guard to let her go, and instead he reacts by saying he'll tighten her bonds even more.
So she tries again anyway, and it works the second time.
Remember that the Allies are altering the stream of reality, coming from the emanations.
They're perhaps even perceiving at that level, which wouldn't be as amazing as you think, since we can do that too. Watch the emanations for what we want to find there.
I do it for a very long time nightly!