After Darkroom practice, I’ll sit and maintain inner silence and stare into the dark watching puffs/shadow blobs. Last couple weeks I’ve started having strange nonsensical dream like scenes that I can never remember, until today. Today I remembered the scene and am fairly certain it formed and dissolved in a puff(?) So I was able to describe it to ChatGPT and generate the scene.
Is this dreaming awake, silent knowledge, par for the course in Darkroom, or something else?
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As Daniel once said in an old post I made:
the principles are pretty much the same. The puffs are pieces of your energy body, and so they easily hold dreams, or phantom objects and beings.
Dream scenes in the puffs are expected. If they are very slowly moving they are deep green zone but if they are animating in normal speed and colour vibrancy they are a red zone phenomena. In later stages you can even enter them fully and stay lucid and come back( i do) or you can try to interact with it's elements with your physical hands or not.
I would say, it was slow moving and tinted blue like the puff. Im hopefully getting to a point where I can hold my inner silence long enough to start to experience and interact with the AP shifts.
I tried last night to touch the puffs. Seems to me the brighter and more defined the edge; I was able to sweep/cup them towards me. Many passed through my hand, or faded out fast cause I lost control over my ID. I thought I could feel mild warmth in my hand from one. Does that sound right?
I only had a few attempts. Darkroom is serious mental multitasking, which sounds contradictory when internal dialogue is silenced.
As you do it you'll get more and more proficient to it, plus in time you'll discover what you can do with them. You can treat them like cotton candy. The more you try and you succeed the better.
If you are silent enough and gazing at infinity, you're actually gazing at time.
There's a saying that sorcerers turn to face "the oncoming time".
I see it as more complicated than that. At any given moment, your tonal memory of time can pick up an alternate timeline belonging to your double.
Once you begin to notice those are always available, and all you have to do is "remember" them while gazing, you realize that time flows in a certain direction, and a memory which flows backwards will be rejected if it's too long.
If you pick up an instant memory that includes a full day of memories you can recall, going backwards in time too far, it's just too irrational to incorporate into the tonal.
But if the memory, which happens in an instant, only goes back 30 seconds, you can reconcile it against your last 30 seconds sitting there, and believe, "Well, perhaps I switched to my double for the last 30 seconds..."
So you accept it.
But a memory of what was happening for a full day, violates what you know to be the case. It's just not possible.
Of course, that's a prejudice.
So if possible while gazing in your manner, look for memories also.
You can't force them though. So usually instructions like this are impossible to follow.
It just has to happen, perhaps because you became aware it can, and not because you "tried".
When you say, “when gazing in your manner” do you mean im doing darkroom differently from others?
I’m doing tensegrity in darkroom, while forcing silence, but it’s not as fluid because my mind still pauses to remeber/think of the next pass and that breaks the inner silence I’ve had from the last pass. I usually sit in DR after I’ve done the passes trying to maintain my silence cause it’s typically been start/stop/start/stop…
"After Darkroom practice, I’ll sit and maintain inner silence and stare into the dark watching puffs/shadow blobs."
That's normal. After doing your passes and having endless nose bleeds from forcing silence, you get to play a little.