The intence ball of light is the energy body?

Soo I have been practicing on and off for a while now. I have gotten bits and pieces of silent knowledge that I wanted to share or ask about.

One thing I have noticed is that my darkroom is filled with more stuff now. I remember once the famous guy in our sub reddit that I can't say the name of because my post will be flagged told me that I might practice darkroom, and one day I'll return to the darkroom and notice stuff that I never saw before. Maybe this is energy that is being freed or results of my recap but it's amazing nevertheless, especially because it gives you more to work with. I seemingly see now like what seems like grids or walls that form as soon as I notice the colors. But that's just something cool I wanted to mention.

One day I was practicing and I saw that the energy body is actually not "here". It exists in like the "source code" of reality, where the only thing that connects it to the person is a sort of thin thread that I saw was extended from seemingly infinity itself into the nervous system. It was as if that thread was the only thing that allowed us to perceive "seeing" as it wasn't really possible to do without it.

The second thing I noticed is that the source of our being is a intense ball of light. It looks like a thousand Suns compressed into one, or like what the insides of a black hole would look like. It's so intense that just seeing it for a short amouts of time seemed to electrocute my whole being.

Then I saw the level of awareness on the j curve as more then just levels of awareness within you. When the asabledge point moves, it seems like as if it alignes with the emanitions at large, there is like a "extrnal" j curve that it alignes with, if you can even call it that.

Like a cosmic j curve of sorts that represents what emanitions at large you are aligned with, which is connected through the lines of the world or this invisible thread, that extends from you. This seemingly means that energy is non local, and only gives the illusion of being "here" or "there", and exists on a sort of meta level.

And the levels of awareness that I saw was something like the building stones of what makes the world. They where represented by the character, so self awarenes, the the collective awareness, which seemingly represented "shared dreaming" and therefore our world, then there was a level of darkness, which was the void of reality, and was represented by silence.

After that there seemed to be like a gate or a door, that blocked direct perception, but the levels seemed to be something like "silent knowledge" and it looked like dim lines everywhere. Like a cobweb that was "dead". Then at the last level, there was what seemed to be a power source, which was the intence ball of light that I mentioned earlier. This is what gave I guess awareness to everything and every level and is what gave energy to the lines of the world.

Just wanted to see if this at all alignes with anyones experiences and maybe someone could have a idea what this is and if there could be a structure like a "j curve" at large of sorts.