In July, I had an experience that I kept to myself for the most part. I shared it with a friend here and moved on. In the past week, I've seen the subject brought up a few times on the subreddit, and I wanted to share what happened in the hope that it'll make it easier for someone else to experience it.
After completing my passes, I sat on the sofa, gazing with my eyes open while wearing an eye mask. At some point during the session, I briefly blanked out, and afterwards, I saw a whitish colored scene floating in front of me. This occasionally happens; sometimes I'll see a blue sky with flowing clouds, or old buildings on a cliff, and so on. Usually, I'll observe, try to stick my hand in it, and nothing really happens.
This time, floating in front of me was a vague, whitish-colored scene composed of broad brushstrokes, resembling the interior of a room or office with a view of a lake. I remember trying to make out what the view was, being curious about it, and leaning up to look. Then I did my best to silence my mind, lean back, relax, and 'let go'. I don't recall if something told me to relax or if I gave myself the command to 'let go'. I felt a pull from my center/abdomen, and I heard a loud ringing in my ears. As I zoomed into the scene, my perspective completely changed, and I was literally in the floating scene. I held still when I was inside, and debated whether I should look at my hands or not. I did not want to disturb anything and get kicked out. After that concern had passed, I was back on my sofa. It was a quick zip in and out. I said, "Thank you!" and took notes.
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Below is a cut-and-paste from my last post. I'm including it in case someone new stumbles upon this and needs context on what my daily sessions include before I sit to gaze with eyes open, wearing an eye mask.
I typically start my sessions by recapping the events of the previous day, then chip away at my personal history. Depending on when I wake up, I spend either 30 or 60 minutes doing this.
Tensegrity: I start with the Lifesaver pass, then Fluidity foot, Sorcerer's Breath, and one of the pressure holds, Offering and Receiving Energy, which were recently taught by Jadey in her Saturday sessions. Then I'll move on to a few passes from the Inner Silence series, Getting the AP Loose pass, and Forcing the AP to Drop Down pass. After warming up, I begin with DVD Vol. 1, Unbending Intent (mashing & stirring energy), followed by the Westwood series (center for decisions, recapitulation, dreaming, and inner silence). I then proceed to DVD Vol. 2, incorporating the affection for the energy body pass. I add Zuleica's pass and strum second attention spot throughout the session between series. Lately, I have been bringing something down with Stellar hatch(end of vol 2) and will repeat the mashing energy passes before sitting on top of it.
I typically spend one to two hours a night doing passes. Whenever I see colors or blackness, I grab and stuff them onto my torso/pouches. If there's a nice puff, I'll stop what I'm doing and play with it by stretching it or holding it up to my face. I'll do this throughout my session. When performing the passes, I take my time and ensure I see something while doing them, like my arms or legs moving, or colors or line fragments being influenced by my movement. Throughout, I put forth my best effort to silence my internal dialogue.
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Thank you for your post—it’s a great boost for this community.
I usually start with Tensegrity, gazing into the darkness and forcing silence. When the room lights up, I change the pace, I lie down and relax, but not too much or I’ll fall asleep. For me it’s something like “gazing awake and relaxed, being light and silent”.
As you repeat it, you get used to the crossing. You know you’re approaching second attention because you feel the shift of the assemblage point.
Once inside, you have to learn to interact with what you “see” and get as much out of it as you can. Greater silence gives us greater ability to interact—we force silence whenever it’s needed.
On that note, Dan’s metaphor of the young cat and the old cat helped me a lot: the young cat anxiously chases everything that moves, so all the mice run away… The old cat lies in a corner and looks sideways or seems “half asleep,” and then the fattest mice stroll cynically through the house. But the cat isn’t asleep—he’s relaxed and ready to pounce.
We can use that as a technique to observe material from the second attention—without forgetting that we don’t want to be cats, but witches and sorcerers. Then we could interact with the mice, or even transform them into horses and unicorns…
Thank you for your reply here and on my other post. I appreciate your feedback.
Hopefully the post encourages people to start practicing, and to experience something similar or strive for better.
Nice! I usually sit upright in my lawn chair during gazing and stay like that throughout. From that point I’ll see a textured colored surface in the distance and go from there.
Lately I’ve been working on seeing past that surface and stabilizing sights beyond that.
I learned the hard way that silence gives us stability. At first, I would see something for a second and immediately rush out to write it down. Each time I saw better things, but I couldn’t interact with them—I ruined my silence and came out frustrated.
I would diagnose: “I lack energy,” “my link with intent is dirty.” But it was pure self-pity. The solution to the conflict was: More silence!
Want to get there faster? Silence. Want to go deeper? Silence. Want to interact better? Silence. Did you enjoy the interaction? Silence.
You don’t rush out to write it down—you make a marker, give it a “luminous like,” add silence, and look for another interaction. In the end, you remember much of the marked material and then record your visions. The perks of the walking dreaming!
I got some help from the ally Lily last night, and there were dream scenes all over the room.
You did it yourself, but you can also get help from the allies.
Try just asking them!
That worked for me last night.
But I just wanted to remote view on my bedspread, so I didn't try to go inside any.
That gets very confusing...
Once you go inside one, you've set a timer for when you can't keep practicing.
So I just watched, and ended up remote viewing on the bedspread, and all around in the air, for close to 30 minutes.
It's easy to decide to stop when you get your "reward", but for sorcery, it's more about "cleaning the link to intent".
So if you can sustain it, you clean more.
Your animations and videos are definitely helping me.
Before my sessions, especially in July, I would watch the second half of your "Alternate Timelines" video to get in the mood before starting. Particularly, when the person begins the mashing passes, and would gaze at the 'wall' and enter the scene.
A few weeks ago, after watching your 'reading from a whorl' video before a session. I had a semi-hit; it was a gazing session sandwiched between dreams.
I sent you a screenshot in chat last week. Below are my truncated notes:
"blue gazing wall in front of me outline of a person pulling another person flying, puff in front of me iob feeling tried saying hi and touching, relaxed blue swirling in front of me like dans whorl animation, raised arms up, fell into the silence and it turned into blue spinning twirling flower beautifully detailed,"
With the whorl-like thing I saw, it was one pink/magenta puff swirling around, surrounded by blue. I don't recall yellow, but it had that vibration you and Bilissss discussed in your post.
The flower formed on a black background; at this point, I lost awareness of my physicality, and I was following the blue line as it formed into the flower and its intricate twists and frills, similar to the introduction of a movie when the logo of a studio is created.
https://preview.redd.it/1q9z1xqbz6sf1.png?width=1024&format=png&auto=webp&s=d5aa1cf3f195716e375710c49f8ba09c9fa3a1ee
Then the flower started twirling in front of me.
This looked like gazing, but I don't recall feeling my silence stones between my fingers.
Similarly, a day or two later, I saw a steel structure in front of me on a black background; it lasted about 5 seconds and felt like a dream, but it wasn't a dream flash. I can't add the second image here.
The following day, of the same style but not as visible for as long, I saw a chain-link fence covered by beige canvas, with the top of a structure visible above the fence.
Looks more like an inorganic being to me.
Try talking to it.
Here's a picture of the steel structure I saw.
https://preview.redd.it/k7vsdhttz6sf1.png?width=1024&format=png&auto=webp&s=43841b391133c4c6c9f5122773968414ecc1ad6a
You never know what those might be. Could be 100% phantom, but also it could be part of some structure seers know about.
That giant dome on the earth likely looks to be "made out of something" we'd run into in our daily world.
Carlos took me in there while I was awake, and the part I got to see looked like an ordinary long white hallway in the offices and bathroom area of a shopping mall.
Also, if you visit "God" he's likely to be surrounded by ordinary looking things.
Or "she's"...
Which God would be more wrathful?
A she, or a he???
It's probably sin dependant.
What series is that fluidity foot from? That's a new one for me.
Look for it in the Longmont Passes, and the Omega Series, on this index page:
https://www.reddit.com/r/castaneda/wiki/tensegrity/misc_tensegrity/
Great, thanks 👍
The link in the Wiki that Techno provided takes you to same Saturday class Jadey taught the pass. There’s a lot of good passes in that hour session!
Aye, I saw that, I checked out the Fairy's Pass. I'll have a look at them others as well. Cheers.