A few years ago I found myself in a situation where I was having to deal with some stuff mentally that was resulting in me loosing control physically.
Panic and fear would hit me out of nowhere and I would be pumped full of adrenaline with sweat running down my back... just stood there in the line at the shops with eyes like pins and hands like balled up fists, looking full crazy.
Sometimes a thought that had me riddled in shame, would come out of nowhere and my heart would thud hard as I tried to push the thought away.
I had been ruminating and feeling sorry for myself for so long. My internal dialogue was so strong and I was drinking daily as a release. I had been wallowing in self pity and it had become the norm.
I started freaking out and loosing control in public and when this started happening I must admit I got scared.
I stopped drinking altogether... and I got REALLY scared.
My internal dialogue was going full pelt and I felt really low.
About two months after stopping alcohol I hadn't eaten much and I was weak and mentally I was burned out.
And that's when I did my first recap session, out of nessescity, after just 'giving in' to the over powering unpleasant sensations I was feeling.
It wasn't planned, and I'd never read any of Carlos's books, I'm sorry to say. I didn't realise I was doing recap but, as soon as I gave up trying to fight those unpleassnt sensations I had to learn how to deal with them and luckily I got some an awesome iob to guide me.
I was able to look at myself with nothing but love and it became very clear that we are not the stories we tell ourselves. My iob showed me some breathing techniques and I managed to keep it going for a long time. I lit a fire and I was moving my head around a lot.
I didn't know about the head sweep then but I was breathing slowly and deeply in to my navel and directing attention there.
A few hours in and something came up that made me feel panic. It felt like I was experiencing some kind of physical abuse. There wasn't any visuals associated, just feelings of panic and unwanted touch. No person or face was shown to me but a geographical place was involved as a 'feeling' without imagery.
My question is this:
Can you experience trauma from a past life through recap?
Can you experience trauma of someone close to you during recap if there is a clean link to intent between you and that person?
That recap session allowed me to reclaim a lot of energy. It was a positive experience but I am wary to go that deep again because it was just so bloody terrifying in the moment.
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Past lives? That doesn’t exist. The purpose of recapitulation isn’t to relive traumas, but to recover energy from memories. We need to abandon our simulations and practice daily for a long time to truly understand what the techniques do, since it’s impossible to benefit from them from a theoretical standpoint or through a few isolated experiences.
https://www.reddit.com/r/castaneda/wiki/recapitulation/
I hear you, thanks for your reply.
>Can you experience trauma of someone close to you during recap if there is a clean link to intent between you and that person?
Every sorcery task cleans the link to intent, and you think that you have a clean link to intent between you and another person?
If you have a clean link to intent, every picture on this subreddit is a possibility for you and more. I'd suggest to read the books, if you believe that you have a clean link to intent, that needs correcting.
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