I need help

Im asking sincerely and genuinely. after reading some of these books a long time ago I got interested in dreaming. Anyways, now, especially at night, I hear voices telling me I need to wake up and that im the antichrist. I don't believe the voices. Anyway, there's so much more to this story and I don't wanna make a long drawn out incoherent post. I just really need someone to talk to, someone who won't immediately dismiss what i say. I try and think as clearly/rational as I can, while experiencing/witnessing very unordinary phenomena. I don't do dark room. alot of things I learned/experienced naturally, just to later read about carlos' similar experience. there's no one in my real life I can talk to about any of my experiences. I just feel alone and could use some counsel to say the least.