I am so so excited to share my progress with the community. Just logged in to write about what happened last night in my practice.
I start with a little background.
I started practicing seriously almost every night not very long ago, although sporadically dark room practice for about 1 year. Before and during that my main practices were dreaming ( girl here ) and recapitulation ( which had very staggering effects on my perception as well, but about that in a different post ). Since I started practicing darkroom practice, I struggled to no end with the internal dialogue. Of course I still do every single time I remember to push further into silence in my day to day. But during practice, is now a kind of suffering that I got to accept and almost not dislike, although I can not go more than seconds without words, but hey, at least I do not completely wanna throw myself off the window with each and every session.
I have to admit I was so so confused about how to practice, even to this day I am not precisely sure about what I am supposed to do completely and I kept pestering Dan in the comments with my questions ( sorry Dan ). Things like if we can accumulate seconds of silence, what happens with the eyes when we gaze in the darkness, concentrate or not on second attention sights and soooo much more. There are so many technicalities I still do not understand even though I am researching this reddit like a crazy woman every day, scavenging for any information to add to my collection of posts ( yes I have a huuuge collection of posts in my notes ). But what I did started to do just recently and just now started to understand the importance of it, was scooping the puffs. Ever since I started to scoop the puffs things are going crazy in my eye balls. Is like a neon party with strange effects so crazy that even when I get up in the middle of the night to let my cat out of the room, I am being dazzled and swarmed by super strong purple/blue clouds with things in them(abstract things), to the point of not seeing any silhouette of things in my room anymore and being a bit dizzy cause of the movement.
Since a few months back, my daughter (17 years old) started practicing with me at times. She was also doing dreaming before that and it seems she has a knack for visiting in her dream body remote places on earth or even travel in time. We are not sure whats going on. She is also visited in her dreams every single night by vultures and sometimes she transforms into one in her dreaming. Anyways, curious kid( high autistic traits) raised in a very non conventional way.
Last night we did a darkroom session together and after about 2 h of forcing silence and scooping bunches of puffs we kinda started to talk in the darkness to each other about what we are seeing. All of a sudden on a puff started to appear an image of a bright silhouette of a bird of prey flying in the sky. Although it was monochromatic like only purple and very light almost white purple bird silhouette flying. It flew for a few seconds then disappeared. I was so shocked by that sight that I told my kid “wow I just seen a bird”, moments after she started to see one also and after about 2 minutes a creepy zombie/ horror face appeared in another puff, again just kinda monochromatic and not very contrasting but a creepy face with flesh almost falling out of the cheek, it was like a chiaroscuro effect where one side of the face was in the shadow and the other in a bit of light. The eyes of the creature were particularly weird because they had no pupil, was just like a grey “empty in the middle” that was hit by a light almost.
Almost jumped off the bed but out of happiness, which of course made it disappear and I immediately told my kid I just seen a creepy face.
Like half a minute after, she gets “attacked” by various faces popping up in her face as well. All creepy as well. I think she got a bit scared and I panicked for a second when she said all of a sudden with trembling voice: “I am getting attacked!!”
Visions passed, we went to sleep. I didn’t know what to make of this collective psychotic episode, until in the morning she shows me a picture she made to show me the faces that were popping in front of her last night ( the image of the post is the image she made ). I was dumbfounded, the face at the bottom left was almost identical to the face I seen, mine also had flesh coming out of his face on a patch on the cheek. What struck me was that the eyes and the gaze of the face were identical to the one of the face I seen. This was not a random: I seen a creepy face also, but it had particular aesthetic details which were impossible to depict unless … we both seen the same face…
So…. what just happened?
Sorry for long post.
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I find it kind of annoying that of all the possible things that could come up, it’s always the creepy faces for me. At this point it’s just tiring.
I also hear someone shouting or something falling very loudly when I’m getting silent enough, which takes me out of it. This especially has been a practice barrier.
Well done! That’s very exciting 😊 Seems like you’re getting to know the neighbors! More impetus to keep going further and further to get more answers! 🔥
It's the old "one dead eye" trick.
Eventually you'll make fun of the faces that try to use that to scare you.
Fairy used to do that. After I argued with her about it, she started showing up in pleasing forms, until one night she was passed out on the floor in sexy lingerie. So realistic, i got worked that maybe I'm an axe murderer who kidnaps women.
But it was just another trick to scare me.
I'd post a pic of that, but reddit censors it immediately.
So here's the reddit acceptable form for Fairy trying to scare someone.
I'[m not sure how we got from running around naked looking for food in the wild, to having artificial intelligence enforce clothing rules while we complain that billionaires have an unfair amount of the food supply.
Conspiracy stuff is so much fun. You should get in on that in your spare time.
9/11 wasn't actually done by Muslims at all, it was done by WASPs and Jews blowing up their own buildings to make a few shekels and make a lazy attempt to take over the world called PNAC, and possibly also a human sacrifice ritual by Skull and Bones.
The Epstein stuff is of course all true, rituals, cannibalism.