A warning: You CANNOT remove "the self" using meditation or religion. That's a very ugly lie created by greedy people.
You eliminate it by perceiving it DIRECTLY, visibly, as distinct pieces stirring the Nagual with concerns. Which causes the second attention to dissipate, and fail to come into focus.
But why should you have to do this manually? Doesn't stopping your internal dialogue cause your assemblage point to move to the other side of the body at which point the "self" is meaningless?
Yes, of course!
But one day you'll find you can't stop your internal dialogue in less than 3 hours, and you'll already have gotten spoiled into thinking that should only take 10 minutes.
It'll feel very frustrating, somewhat as if you "lost it all".
Of course, you just got greedy and haven't clearly understood the process. And perhaps were getting some supernatural help from infinity.
Now it's time to analyze the process of silence and figure out what's making it take so long to move your assemblage point.
In the process, you'll have to go back and forth between your tonal awareness and perception of "The Nagual", which is likely what you're craving.
While figuring out what the "self" consists of and trying to silence those pieces even more, don't ignore sudden memories of "weird visions" that seem to have lasted a while, JUST NOW, but you have absolutely no memory of them left other than a faint impression.
That's "the abstract" becoming visible between the here, and the there, of your physical body and your energy body.
Except...
The "distance" is now only 6 inches, instead of 10 feet like it was when your double first came to see what you were up to with all those weird tensegrity movements.
Tensegrity "forms" it, but eventually it's just a blue ball of energy surrounding your torso.
Bottom line: don't expect smooth sailing at all points. We always have to work like a dog.
Don Juan said so.
But we get scooby snacks along the way, so it's worth it!
And I didn't mean the dancing hamburgers. That was just the best I could do to represent the oddness of memories of the abstract. It's fine while you're perceiving it, but later on it's just plain nuts.
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Interesting!
Sort of related to how stalking moves the assemblage point to a new position, in part by performing “not doings” of the self, and slowly getting elements of the self out of the “line of sight” of one’s awareness?
So you get more and more silent, and displace your assemblage point more and more, by moving your focus away from the self, and the memories of it either don’t arise or aren’t disruptive enough to pull your focus back to it?
Or maybe I’m way off the mark here 😅
That's the stalking path, but the darkroom path would consider that "pretending", and the wrong thing to focus on.
During darkroom, you only focus on removing EVERY SINGLE WORD from your mind, with the goal being 2 minutes continuously.
The rest happens automatically, as long as you're doing Tensegrity to lure your double to show up as visible magical puffs.
It's the combination of gazing at real magic, and forcing the internal dialogue to stop, that causes the assemblage point to move.
During stalking however, you can be "conniving" and inventive. You study your own habits, gather them up, and figure out a behavior that is outside all of them.
Stalking can be kind of like this, whereas darkroom is more straightforward.
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Thanks for posting. This is kind of related to a question I posed in Discord.
The last couple of times I did the Westwood series of passes, I observed something different after the last recap pass. I was started seeing a diffuse yellow blob in the center of my vision and diffuse blue around my periphery.
The yellow blob stuck around for a bit while morphing. After some seconds, it slowly grew smaller and disappeared. As it was shrinking, the blue was encroaching and eventually filled my vision.
I’m pretty sure I didn’t switch my perception to my energy body. I’m guessing it’s because my inner dialogue flared up — the whole time I was basically narrating what I was seeing. Do you think I need better silence in order to switch from “Here” to “There”?
Absolutely! In fact, the moment you stop emphasizing silence, you stop making progress and even begin to lose some of your gains.
That's pretty much what SK flowing is. Switching over to your double's sight.
At least, when it's "videos in the air".
I saw more text last night, so I suppose Carlos' recommendation for us to look for text is going to work out automatically.