Last Monday evening, before showering, I did passes in my darkroom for 20 minutes. Puffs were large and thick. I covered myself with them, stretched one and put it over my eyes like a mask.
Eventually a phantom wall appeared, I thought it was the real wall in the room and my eyes were messing with me. I reached my hand out expecting to feel the physical wall and it was offset by a few feet, started laughing, then played with textured patches of white light.
I showered in the dark, played with and stuffed puffs. Lately when showering I've been focusing on my torso when doing Zuleica's pass and strumming the second attention spot. Noticing white webbing or sticky lightning around my abdomen, straight and curly line fragments around my wrists and lots of sensations there.
Went to bed, woke up and recapped the previous day and some of my 20s for an hour. I remembered memories I hadn't thought about in years.
Passes were good saw some tendon energy shooting down my arms during some passes, I've been noticing this more lately.
Sat to gaze, did seated running man with my feet briefly, followed by head sweeps, in what felt like minutes, I had a quick eyes open dream. I was outside sitting on a curb petting a dog. It looks similar to mine, but it's face shifted and it went in to bite my groin.
Then I’m back to gazing, and there’s a gray static wall in front of me with the outline of a big giant dog resembling a Labrador. I said 'hi puppy' the face moved a bit and then morphed into more of a human face.
Then in front of me, I see my dad’s face either in a dream flash or as an outline or both at the same time and I started to feel sad and was about to start crying (he recently passed) I decided or something told me to not indulge and to use that emotion to propel my gazing further. I was able to convert the emotion into focus.
On a flat puff, I saw what appeared to be the backs of old school Mickey Mouse (black and red) and Donald Duck (blue and white) separately climbing up the puff.
Then, another dream, I’m in a house and my foot goes through a rotten floorboard. I look in the hole and see there’s a whole a layer underneath the house but decide not explore which knocked me back to gazing.
My alarm went off, I snoozed it, and continued gazing.
On a black background, a teal colored basic locomotive appeared and started slowly rotating in front of me, it completed a few revolutions.
On the side of the train I noticed the numbers ‘734’ or ‘794’ and focused on them. After shifting my gaze the numbers became the highlight, and random letters and numbers started scrolling. There was a visual buzzing or vibration around the oval containing the characters.
After the train disappeared I got up and started my day.
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Nice. Glad to hear you are getting it done. Gotta go take care of my husband in the hospital. He fell at 2:30am. Too early to think straight.
Thank you for taking the time to write this especially with everything going on. I hope he’s alright and has a speedy recovery. Best wishes.
I tried to draw things which can't be drawn, and had to give up after wasting several days. So last night I saw something else I might be able to draw, but this morning I realized it's impossible...
Fortunately you came along with a post on reddit!
It's interesting that Carlos told us to seek text with our Silent Knowledge (AKA "seeing"), but so far that seems rather difficult. Unless you take into account sights like this one, where there's some text or numbers on a "video in the air" type sight.
I now see that perhaps daily. And others see text on "stuff".
Carlos wanted us to become "Readers of Infinity", but perhaps he was simply out of date, and these days we need to be "Surfers of Infinity".
Alternate reality Web surfers. By the way, you can indeed swipe videos in the air, to get to the next one. In the "the shift below" territory. It's quite amazing!
You can even scroll reality backwards in time...
I don't know if this can be done such that you change the normal view of reality too, but it's theoretically possible.
Imagine if you had an "undo" on your daily world!
My guess would be that you'd eventually scroll yourself out of the normal view of reality, and end up with problems we can't comprehend.
Otherwise, the old seers would have discovered this way to escape death.
Some of my own speculations... I think Carlos liked navigation too! I think there's a document somewhere that even showed the attempt to buy a boat?!?!
Also in 1974 Hermeneutics Unlimited was renamed Laugan Production ,Inc... (Logan released all the "tools" for people to navigate the unknown on their own)
and we have this cover with the ship in Readers of Infinity which gives us an explanation for this name;.. maybe "a navigation in the dark sea" and not only...
I believe that's a Dutch ship of the kind which brought Lujan to Mexico.
Supposedly he was working as a kungfu guard on the ship.
It all makes sense historically if you ask the AI about it several times.
The Dutch East India Company was sailing in the 1600s, although there's some argument about whether they'd dare to sail directly to Mexico, prior to the 1700s.
Spain was trying to control trade with Mexico.
I saw this same ship when Little Smoke blackmailed into trying to save this knowledge from extinction.
Awake, sitting on the steps of a hotel in Bangkok on a business trip.
She pulled me into a tunnel to see this ship, and then said she'd pull me back there anytime she wanted so that I was effectively insane. Unless I made an effort to save this knowledge.
Of course, these days I'd just tell her to mellow out, an stop threatening me with super cool magic I would like to see anyway!
IOB threats are pretty much silly once you can move your own assemblage point reliably.
They gained control back in the days of the lame drug using "Men of Knowledge", but lost it once sorcerers learned to "see" all by themselves.
ChatGPT said I'm wrong about it being the Dutch East India company and Lujan's path is more likely:
Chinese/Asian guard or sailor → Manila → Spanish/European-style ship → Acapulco → stays in Mexico
Personally, I don't trust chatgpt for information regarding Carlos etc.. he constantly gives wrong answers and insists they are correct..🤷🏻♂️
Eventually he gets it right. You just have to keep correcting it.
The good news is, they DO look at conversations and might eventually decide they got that topic wrong. And improve it.
For example, I'd be surprised if ChatGPT doesn't realize now, that Richard DeMille was a founder of scientology.
Only the German trained one knew that a couple of years ago.
So that now, if you point out that DeMille never found a valid complaint and only wanted to harm what he perceived as the competition, it won't freak out.
Odd how people point to DeMille as proof Carlos was a fraud.
I can't think of a single point he makes which supports that.
And many were just outright fabricated.
I’ve seen legible text in various forms and every time it’s a treat.
I’m always amazed by the font and clarity of text. In this case, the font and outline/border of the numbers was perfect, better than the generated image.
Occasionally I’ll see a webpage, a Reddit post, or a newspaper with tiny text. I’d focus on the words and they’ll become legible.
Other times it’s presented like ‘type’ text or terminal text, readable without zooming in or focusing.
The challenge is remembering at least a quarter of what is read. Also, sometimes it scrolls too fast or too slow. All part of the fun :)
When Carlos first suggested this, I didn't really understand.
But now it's obvious...
He explained, it might be better for us to view text using our seeing, because it's less confusing than a "video in the air".
Which was a preference of the old seers.
A good example of how that can be confusing comes from the books, wherein the first time don Juan told Carlos to try to "see" on purpose, what he saw was that apartment building with a man in the window, which mutated into a flying French Poodle.
Carlos himself had no idea what that "meant".
And to warn beginners again: Silent Knowledge is NOT Silent Truth.
It's just knowledge!!!!
Knowledge isn't always useful, or even "true" in the way beginners want it to be.
It's just "about" something very specific, and in sorcery there's plenty of alternate realities for the things you are "seeing", to originate from.
It's very much like "truth" inside a dream. It's true in the dream...
But often nonsense when you leave that specific version of reality.
We "see", tainted by what remains in our awareness after we stop our internal dialogue. Which can even be somewhat like a residue from a weird phantom world in a dream. So distorted, that "knowledge" of it is useless here.
So if you were blowing glass all day long at your job, your seeing might look like this picture of a glass tube being formed into something on a glass blowing lathe.
It's a simple, repetitive operation, which is vivid enough to get burned into your mind.
So you might "see" a glowing glass beaker that does something, or has something done to it, as your "answer" from seeing.
Definitely confusing!
If there's "knowledge" in it, you'd rather have that pop up in the air look like an MTV popup "fun fact". Such as Madonna singing "Like a Virgin", and up pops the fact that she lost her virginity in a school bathroom at age 13.
So Carlos wasn't suggesting that we somehow convince infinity to transmit text, but rather he was mentioning an "obsession" modern people have, which is always tainting their residual intent.
Glass blowing obsessions go away when you quit that job.
And only glass blowers could manage to view Silent Knowledge, as rotating molten Erlenmeyer flasks.
(reminds me of the mushroom shapes that represent people).
But all modern people have latent obsessions with text appearing everywhere around them, and having a "meaning".
It’s so cool and encouraging seeing your progress, you’re getting really good!
When you end up in dreams while gazing, do you still know you are gazing?
I’m so sorry your dad recently passed. It’s good you are able to use the practices here to help with difficult feelings, though 🩵
It’s different every time. Generally I have some amount of awareness, but it varies.
Sometimes I literally get sucked into a tunnel or go into a surface of color while gazing and have full lucidity when entering that dream.
Other times I have very little dreaming awareness.
Those are the two extremes.
The night after the session I just posted about I found my hands and revived myself from fading out of a dream. Then started pointing at things with the intent to see energy I’m pretty sure I saw an IOB. It’s hard to tell because I was ejected out of the dream right after.
This morning I pointed at something and saw energy. Don’t recall the details, didn’t remember doing it until I started writing my response to you.
I could go on and on. How about yourself?
Also, thank you for the kind words.
It’s the same way for me, too, it varies, but blanking out seems to throw me off. And I’m more likely to blank out and totally lose my dreaming awareness if I’m sitting or laying down while gazing.
Super cool you were able to come back from nearly fading out, and were able to remain in the dream! I‘d like to be able to do that, as whenever I’ve nearly blanked out like I‘ve caught myself falling asleep when entering fully in a dream scene I’m gazing at, I wind up back where I was gazing from.
For a while I was chaining blankouts to move my AP.
I would start gazing allow myself to drift on the edge of blanking out, then snap back to a AP position further along, then I’d do it again and have my AP somewhere up front.
I briefly mentioned it here, in the bottom right image.
https://www.reddit.com/r/castaneda/comments/1oxfzao/progress_in_the_darkroom/?share_id=Ip51_0-jiIlFC6FBMkQDw&utm_content=2&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=ioscss&utm_source=share&utm_term=1
Occasionally, I get disoriented coming back from blankout and it takes me a moment to register what I am looking at.
For unknown reason I haven’t been chasing this technique lately.
That’s a clever way to use them! Good control. I get too annoyed by the disorientation lol, good on you for keeping at it long enough to make use of blankouts!
Looks like you’re making great progress without it, though, too! 🙂🤘
I’ve seen legible text in various forms and every time it’s a treat.
I’m always amazed by the font and clarity of text. In this case, the font and outline/border of the numbers was perfect, better than the generated image.
Occasionally I’ll see a webpage, a Reddit post, or a newspaper with tiny text. I’d focus on the words and they’ll become legible.
Other times it’s presented like ‘type’ text or terminal text, readable without zooming in or focusing.
The challenge is remembering at least a quarter of what is read. Also, sometimes it scrolls too fast or too slow. All part of the fun :)