I've been wanting to delve deeper into my practice for a long time: tensegrity, the dark room, contemplation, recapitulation, and keeping silence throughout the day. I always tell myself I'll dedicate time to this every day. And sometimes I actually manage to do it for several days in a row, but often it happens that due to fatigue from work and family, I'm simply too lazy to do them, and I end up doing nothing.
At the same time, I understand that I have to work really hard and strive hard every day.
If I continue in the same spirit, I'll eventually get nowhere. I've been on this Reddit for six months now, but I haven't seen much progress. I'd like to hear from people how do you manage to combine practice?
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I think this is pretty common tbh... its a matter of "personal energy" that you managed to free with the practices of recap/tensegrity/inner silence and how much of it is available. You cannot shift into the best version of yourself overnight, its a process. Especially if you had destructive negative patterns of behaviour in the past, it will take a while to detach yourself from the ego structure you've built.
That being sai, I am just explaining the mechanism. Dont take this as a reason for excuse to not progress. There are forces in the universe who do not want you to suceed (flyers are certainly one of those) and it'll show up as inertia that we all face on this path. Push through it by discipline, there is no way around it. Sometimes you have to be a bit hard on yourself, or at least honest, and "just do it" instead of procrastinating.
You dont want to be dreading the practices, however. Pick the ones that are truly exciting for you and then keep going.
Wait, didn't Don Juan invent the concept of flyers for Castaneda, so he could work better? Is that really true?
where did you get this data from? 🤔
Idk, I've never seen them myself. We have practirioners on this sub, that have however (https://www.reddit.com/r/castaneda/comments/1re9q0c/seeing_the_flyers/) and I believe those perceptions can be achieved.
but.
Bottomline is, it doesnt matter what the forces are behind the inhibitions or roadblocks you are experiencing is, really.
The only thing that matters is how you are going to respond to that & react to the challenge at hand.
I read about this on this reddit, I'm not sure maybe even Daniel wrote about it, can't say for sure from whom I get this data
I still don't believe in the fliers.
But as a "metaphor" it works out.
So perhaps, it's a force generated by the intent of all of mankind, pushing people towards not learning sorcery because it's outside the social order.
Don Juan even implied that if Carlos wanted to assemble another great band of emanations, he'd have to give up God himself. Who is a base force generated by mankind praying to him all the time.
One we can visit, by the way. We can literally see, and speak with God, and he answers back!
But doesn't really exist.
So maybe our laziness combined with refusal to believe there's any real magic in the world, clinging instead to pretend magic and religions, generates the flier's mind?
And that could indeed be "seen" as an entity.
But so can evil clowns.
In the long run it doesn't make any difference, unless you're a "Cleargreener" who is basically a lazy religious zealot and doesn't like to hear that the Devil is made up.
Because pretending is all you have.
It doesn't matter if the fliers exist, in the long run, because if the flier's exist then you have to save energy and gain silence, until your energy rises above your knees. At which point they leave you alone.
But if they don't exist, then if you want to learn sorcery you have to rise your energy above your knees so that it begins to break off, and form the "shiny outer coating" that makes Silent Knowledge possible.
Thus either way you have to do the same thing, if you want to learn.
It just makes a difference on being able to blame someone else for your problems.
Where's that "Church Lady" when you need her. Was that from Saturday Night Live?
But, in one of your older posts, you said that you found the flyer's planet and planned to go there with stellar hatch, then Lily (or was it Fancy?) stopped you.
Also, in another post, you said that your internal dialogue appeared in a humanoid form. Are you sure that wasn't your flyer? Maybe you starved your flyer so much that, it appeared in that form.
What’s contemplation? I don’t remember that being a part of the practices.
Once you can turn off your internal dialogue and are entering second attention and have a chance at seeing those sights you get motivated to practice. Learning new passes affects your passes as you get better.
If you figure it out, let me know...
I have the same problem. Just on a different scale.
The good news is, if you increase your effort something takes notice and gifts you.
Before you're actually silent enough to produce that gift on your own.
But then you have to increase the effort, or the gifts stop.
🤣 🤣 💯
People in here disregard much of the “warrior” stuff as a huge distraction, which it very well can be. Personally some things I’ve found actually useful from the books on this topic is things like asking your death if this matters right now. Especially once you start being able to “feel” yourself accumulating silence, your mind will start to change, and it’s all about saving energy. Maintaining internal silence as often as you can begins to show you the places and situations in your life that make it the hardest to stay silent or even remember about this path rather than just indulging in the river of shit social mind we’ve been trained to agree with. So reminding yourself of your death, thinking about dying before you’ve reached total freedom, means you’ll die just like any other person or animal that has ever died, absorbed back into the source and losing your individuality forever. This path is the one real chance at true freedom any of us has ever found, of course it takes a lifetime of work, no one can even comprehend how deeply integrated we are into the human social matrix and the earth itself. We have to accumulate enough energy to escape the pull of the intent of everyone else, and eventually the earth itself, it seems to me to be the sorcerers version of when NASA calculates how much delta v a rocket will need to escape a planets gravity well. Also reminding myself of how absolutely amazing this all is, the infinite implications of what this path means if it is true, and then slowly really actually learning all this stuff is true because you’ve been putting in the work and it has been WORKING, is mind bending, and you use silence to maintain sobriety in the face of all this crazy shit. It’s all just dreams, it just depends on how stable the intent is, to make it more and more “solid”. Once you truly realize what that means for the Earth’s dream itself, things start to get weird…
Being bored.... It's a superpower we are all losing.
I have this thesis that it was actually easier for shamans in the past, simply by the fact that they didnt have mobile phones in their pocket all the time. They are such powerful tools of distraction & eat up a lot of our attention. You literally can never be bored in this day and age; you just endlessly scroll.
Sorry for dropping link to one of those eaters :) but it's telling data:
I'm thinking the same, the overwhelming never-ending (and addictive) supply of entertainment perhaps kills the impulse to explore. If you have nothing but what your eyes/senses can reach, you're perhaps more likely to want to expand on it.. :)
I've been practicing for a year and a half with varying degrees of success, and I can also say I don't see much progress. The main reason? Getting stuck in social problems, not having enough inner silence. What keeps me going despite the setbacks? I think the intention to practice witchcraft. That's the only reason.
When I first started practicing, while doing dream series passes in my closet I saw a puff with a 3D face on it floating there. The face was detailed, the puff was glowing. It was one of my first holy crap moments, ‘this is real’.
After that I rearranged work, family, everything I could to ensure my practice was consistent.
Whoever pursues this practice needs to want it more than anything else in order to make it work. Nothing else is going to get someone out of bed to go practice every night.
That true drive is needed, unbending intent.
i can't answer your question exactly because i didn't overcome laziness.
but at this point, i look forward to practising silence. it's not a chore. it's the highlight of my day.
ordinary life is so dumb and meaningless (at best), a chore (typically) and stressful or torture (at worst) that silence is a delightful break from all of that.
when you see ordinary life for the pointless stupid nonsense it is, it isn't that difficult to find motivation for silence.
Do you have things in your regular every day life that you've been putting off that need to be done? Like a personal project or goal.
In my experience, having things I planned to do and putting them off is really distracting for doing anything else and contributes to laziness. So I've been trying to catch up and as I'm catching up I feel I have more free time to "randomly" (unscheduled) do passes or recaps in the day. I think I read a comment here saying that one of Tasha's books suggests you find ways to "sneak" practice in.
Pues el mero hecho de comprometerse con el conocimiento