Hi everyone, i found this server when i was like 25 or something that is 6 or 7 years ago and I didn’t really practice darkroom and never understood how intense practice brings the results of "seeing", i have always thought it was compulsive.
Especially in this day and age when more is somehow considered better.
I started reading Carlos Castanedas earlier books @ 22yr and instantly i felt I definitely found a treasure…
after this server I learned a-lot and about the further other books as well and the magical passes and things. Plus i really important my vocabulary and grammar from reading alot of dans writings which i absolutely loved growing up
although I didn’t practice, ironically stuff happened when i did, one instance is when i was laying at resting position and i suddenly could see with my eyes closed the entire room,
other such instances happened when the magic passes opened my senses enhancement all of a sudden and there
among these were also a case of the temporary loss of my self importance for which i felt like a bubble existing and everything else was like irrelevant except from the bubble of perception I was perceiving from.
and there’s not any kind of drugs involved especially not sugar flooding my sys with dopamine or anything and i have attempted to understand these things from a different angle so far….
But the practicing thing for 2hrs is something I simply don’t understand from not being motivated from finding puffs.
like from my studies on indigenous cultures especially on shamanism using drums set to 250bpm to bypass the mind to vibrations and things to plant allies etc like they are all great and so on… to the intent that tensegrity builds true will yes pretty cool and also effective
I am still unsatisfied with what i have experienced because of the non lasting results, someone can say "oh well the assemblage point has to move and it always moves back so keep at hard work"
we thing is i don’t believe in hard work, effort i understand if there’s a solid map and goal that we’re seeking
Like one experience i really can not forget is being in a dream state for like an hour or so, with the internal dialogue and all, but i believe i was experimenting with a load of stuff
I of course can not replicate non of these experiences although i can attain high sensory perception, the experience was distinct to the extent that every movement was like a series of clips i was witnessing.
and like i said these things are indeed fleeting, i had many other paranormal things happening once in a while (not often)! But from the perspective that i can gain a slight degree of lucidity in my dreams.
I guess what i am after is to connect the dots to figure out what all my experiences have in common and the mysteries of awareness and how these things can be solved for in reproducing consistent results.
I am NOT after techniques at all… i don’t want a how to manual or a set of directions. thanks for reading!
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What your experiences have in common is random minor ap movements which happens to literary everyone.
You cant be wanting to understand the mysteries of awareness and having constant results but not practicing. This won't happen. We do have many practioners that put the work and experience the second attention. There are so many posts to read here under different flairs to understand what I'm talking about.
what i wanted was happiness and seeking it in sorcery made me feel really unhappy and angry more i understand and see things… ..
I wanted to adjust my behavior like volume switch, so i can behave differently
i get angry and rightly so and wanted to truly accept people how they are also accepting that nothing practically is more important than holding awareness
I am not actually fighting with practice that isn’t my obstacle
i think someone might just say go recap but i did those things in the past and yeah it can work but it’s not necessary a lasting change … the personal history or weight of self reflection
I am interested in understanding how people got past this stage… it is bad. I read somewhere taisha senior witch mentioned an ability to remain "unchanged"
I have yet to experience this delight and honestly wish to remain unchanged and this is what I actually seek when i say the mysteries of awareness. I don’t want practice or someone telling me what to do
It sounds like all you really need is to learn how to shut off the internal dialogue
That thing will make you feel worse than anything else ever could.
If you teach yourself how to do that, then you won't have anyone or anything making you angry or feeling bad, because you won't notice anything that's trying to make you feel sorry for yourself.
And then you can do anything you want to, and nothing will be able to stop you! ☺️
that’s a great idea, i understand it better now!! Thanks
Since you don't want any techniques or directions then I'll just wish you luck. So good luck!
I am not understanding the question. Everything here began from gradually going past the internal dialogue. The experience there was one instance of forcing the internal silence to grow gradually and doing movements to stirr the energy from the feet to the shoulders
Like Athina said, you’re never going to really know if you don’t get over your aversion to effort and start practicing.
Hopefully you’ll want to know badly enough that you do, before it’s too late 🤞😬 ⏰
Did you know that some people never get to live to see the age of 31 or 32?
We’re planning my uncle’s funeral right now, even though he just got married two years ago and is younger than my dad! Somehow, we were all still surprised. He wasn’t supposed to die yet, what gives? 😞
You’re right, but actually i do practice it’s just that i have a rebellious character to not follow no one and map things out directly, this means doing things the way i want to. I faced like multiple deathly experiences while i was younger and tbh the early years were wreckless and filled with too much activity. so this is partly also why I don’t follow and i rather figure stuff on my own
condolences to your uncle
Thank you for your condolences 🩷 I wish he would have taken better care of his health, but no one was able to really say anything to him about his unhealthy habits--like myself and many of my family members, he was very stubborn and independent, and super sure of himself once he was certain of something. He liked learning things through experiencing them first-hand, since he was so inquisitive, but I guess that approach unfortunately extended to his stubbornness and unwillingness to change himself and his habits.
It's good you've learned already how to change your habits, it sounds like, since all those close calls with death made you change your behavior. I'm just so curious why you would stop after that and settle with another set of habits, if you already know that you can change yourself however you want, whenever you want.
You don't really want to be a slave to your own ego and the thoughts running your life that tell you over and over again that you know better, do you? If you are strong-willed, as you seem to be, why would you settle with being a slave to yourself instead of choosing to take control over your life and your behavior?
It just seems like a really sad way to go about things. I don't personally feel sad about it myself, you should live however you want to, but it's just a shame. You don't really get to choose how you live your life that way, instead just choosing to act in whatever way pleases the completely made-up taskmaster you think of as you.
I really do wish the best for you, though! Maybe one day you'll feel differently, you've definitely got people in your corner pulling for you! 🙂
i remember i read some cultures are so different in a way that they celebrate and offer cake or food rites at the death of someone, but i guess they take better care of their self …avoiding self sabotage
my situation its not as bad as it sounds, i am actually thankful and content for understanding what I understand
With what method, you made this happen?
Did you though of something? Questioning existence and why you're consciously perceiving the view in front of you, like a camera man? And who is this camera man.
"among these were also a case of the temporary loss of my self importance for which i felt like a bubble existing and everything else was like irrelevant except from the bubble of perception I was perceiving from."
I am not understanding the question. Everything here began from gradually going past the internal dialogue. The experience there was one instance of forcing the internal silence to grow gradually and doing movements to stirr the energy from the feet to the shoulders
Ohh nice, what movement did you do for this?
That's how it happened to me long long ago, tho not a good way to reach it
passes for forcing silence are best suited. Um not really being aware of awareness fits into far eastern cultures such as dharma… although that is good also these things have no relationship with those practices there
Read the book magical passes it helps, there’s a silent knowledge condenses version as well
but my post here is NOT about these things or practices just to let you know
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