Back in July mom and I had dinner with my niece and her husband. My niece is going through some particularly trying times with her health, and was talking about this over dinner. Mom (grandma) cut her off and started the conversation in a new direction. Noticing this, I went back to my niece and continued talking to her about her health.
From this one little moment, I've thought a lot. My mom must have conversation ADHD, because I know she cares. My poor niece was devastated. I couldn't help but think of myself growing up. My mom did this all the time! I internalized the messages: I don't care. You're not important. No one will listen to you unless you say it short and sweet... on and on.
I've been watching myself and I have, indeed, internalized this on many levels. I can see it in almost everything I do from not talking much and even writing. I've gotten more and more quiet over the years and it's this tapeworm that's been running in my mind. Since I have discovered this, I've been trying to do the opposite, especially with mom. I give a lot of detail, I keep talking. It's been a liberating process.
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Is recapitulation the same thing as releasing Karma?
My studies of karma are from my academics in South Asian philosophy, particularly the Jains. The ajiva (soul) acquires karma matter and becomes heavy, so heavy that it manifests as life. Is this a release of karma? I don't know. Maybe someone else will chime in.
As for Castaneda, it is definitely a release of filaments that have kept me bound to on old way of thinking, maybe even lightened my load a little as I give mom her energy back and say, "No thank you" to the thoughts that have kept me in my own prison. I may have noticed it, corrected for it, though about it and taken action, but it will still be a while before I am back to a more natural state, energetically.
Do you have similar experiences?
Happy cake day, btw.
Thank you very much!!!!!
Ask away..... although I shutter..... you are a carlo$
I can ask you anything about the toltecs?
Uh..... you could of asked me anything you want.
Doesn't mean I know anything.
I need a benefactor. Are you available?
I have zero idea what that means.
The benefactor teaches the student how to develop and manage the second attention.
What are your interests? Maybe we can align on something, instead of me asking a myriad of random thoughts.
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I don't think Dan likes women too much.
My real interest lately had been the art of stalking. I notice they don't have flair for stalking. I'm interested in the three precepts of stalking. Should I write them out?
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Happy Cake Day!
The Three Precepts of Stalking
1) Everything that surrounds us is an unfathomable mystery
2) We must unravel these mysteries, but without ever hoping to accomplish this.
3) Aware of the unfathomable mystery that surrounds him it is his duty to try and unravel it. He takes his place among mysteries and regards himself as one.
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I don't know. I've had a lot of mysterious moments since embarking on this path.
Our perception is a two-step process: What our energetic body perceives in the nagual and what our body perceives in the tonal. What I am describing here in this post is about the nagual perception taking hold above the tonal. I bypassed my inventory.
As followers of Castaneda our benefactor left us a marvellous collection of books which overflow with raw power.
Why would you need anything else?
I'm in a hole...
What hole?
I guess I am in a hole, waiting.
I made some decisions which were bad for me, and I can't correct them soon enough. I'm trying to exercise my patience as well as maybe seeing my position as a retreat so I can reassess and reevaluate my life. I think the good thing to come of this is that I won't be moved from my position after this by external forces. I've learned a hard lesson.
Seems a teacher isn’t what is required but for the warrior to take action.
Can I transform the common cigarette into an ally?
Ha!
Of course. That's why you see honest to goodness pictures of Native Americans back in the early 1900s, smoking tobacco.
And in one of the women's books, they used cigars for a seance.
Yah, I guess I knew this. I'm more wondering how?
Florinda ‘Witch’s Dream’
I dearly want to teach Cholita to do that!
Between the two of us, we could make an inorganic being visible to people stoned on nicotine.
I already have the mercury.
Anyone who doesn't remember at least as well as I do (badly) might want to know, you put a bowl of mercury on a round table, people sit around that in chairs, and smoke cigars in a small room. It fills with smoke, the people gaze at the mercury, and a spirit materializes over the mercury.
Essentially, the mercury becomes a "horizon", and you could see just about anything on it, if you were perfectly silent.
Since most people can't get silent, the nicotine alters their internal dialogue, and the fright of anticipation of a spirit helps it move.
Given an IOB's presence you could more or less guarantee they'll see a "being" and not just a landscape or colors.
I suppose the people in that book, doing the seance, were sorcerers using their abilities to make money?
So that's not always something which will hold you back from learning.
Usually, but not always.
I’ve often wondered the same thing. Seems like the same thing but with different semantics
Getting rid of those heavily-loaded emotions, you certainly feel lighter.
Thanks for this, a big part of Recapitulation is keeping what works, letting go of what harms uss