New, not sure what's next for me

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New, not sure what's next for me
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Hey y'all,
I am new to this community but am familiar with this topic. I learned it from another source that I will refrain from introducing into this ecosystem. I am here to learn from you all and work within your system. Still getting up to date on the jargon, so bear with me please :)
Here's what I can do: -In meditation, in about 20 minutes I can enter what I've previously called gnosis. This is the state after inner silence when the puffs of color and light become bright and i feel myself completely inside that dark space, with the deep sense of peace where I'm pretty sure I'm asleep or just about (body feels dead or heavy if I still feel it but im still fully conscious). Here I can interact with entities that come from the light clouds. I'll see scenes of places in the depths of the lights that sometimes seem to come forward and engulf me, but I can never stay. Sometimes I'll see my room or somewhere else through my eyelids, but it fades when I notice. Recently this has been becoming a more enduring experience, but I can never enter the scene, just stay engulfed by it, if that makes sense. Sometimes I see (what I assume is) my double's outline opposite me. Sometimes I see wireframe tunnels, but can never go through them. I do this every day for between 20 minutes and 90 minutes, and have been for around a little more than a year. I am also an especially sensitive person to this kind of thing and have specific entities that I work with often enough.
--A few days ago during meditation I had the distinct impression of seeing through eyes and hearing through ears that were a few feet over from mine, and then an entity showed me two pyramids with tips touching each other and spinning in opposite directions. This isn't the first time an entity had shown me something related to deepening my practice without explanation, that's how I got this far to begin with. I saw what I called my astral hands this time for the first time, or one of the hands. It was an organic horror with a mess of fingers coming out of it like there were many hands stacked on top of each other, but they were all from one hand. I thought it was neat.
I've seen a lot of wild, scary stuff. All good fun. Inspiring, even!
The big discovery for me with this community was the concepts of J curve and ap, because it resonated with my recent experience of moving "over" into the other senses.
Does anyone have any suggestions? I practice inner silence (imperfectly, admittedly) at every available moment through the day and I meditate daily. Haven't done tensegrity (not even super sure how I would), haven't done recap (in a way that wasn't just regular old rumination or typical inner child/shadow work type stuff) , haven't done dark room work. Everything I do on a schedule is meditation with an eye mask on, sometimes headphones with binaural beats sometimes not because I like to train myself without aids.
Any recommendations for where to start with the literature, or suggestions on what to focus my attentions on?
Thanks, hope you all have a good and fruitful weekend.
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