Build a puff, splash it on your face. The "surface" smacks you like a cream pie in the face gag.
For you guys who can visually see the puffs, one thing you can do with this one is give yourself, "purple vision".
Might even be possible to elaborate the use of this, to make recapitulation visible.
But the assemblage point has to drop below the green line, before the purple puff will be strong enough to be impressive. Or to respond to being compressed.
And it has to drop to the red line, before you can splash your face like that and keep the sight of the purple, when you move your eyes away.
Once you have the purple sight, you use that for the recap gaze (and sweep).
It's really not like you are doing anything, other than keeping some strong second attention in sight.
I suppose you could say that the IOBs also don't do anything.
It's just so nice to see a 4 inch tall Fairy flying around in the dark room, pointing out puffs you can scoop with your hands.
It prevents fantasizing or having the internal dialogue return.
Silence + anything coming from the second attention, especially something absolutely mesmerizing = assemblage point moves down the J curve.
But you can also play with the darkness until you find all sorts of areas crowded with interesting colors, and compress some into a "surface" you can carry around.
When the assemblage point is down at the red line, you can even "break off" pieces of whatever you see, and carry them around like a square lens.
So this pass, could make recap visible.
With a little tinkering.
How: you keep the purple in sight. So that while you are turning your head, you are seeing a purple blob sweep across the air.
Focus intensely on the purple while doing nothing but remembering details, which holds off your internal dialogue, and those details will manifest in the purple light.
Not instantly! The assemblage point has to move.
And it can even take 3 days to get the images to begin.
So the main thing at first would be, can you smash the colored light into your face, and keep the color when you gaze into the darkness?
Could be red sight, doesn't have to be purple. And the purple changes into greenish and bluish tones, once you "detach" it.
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u/ItsBeyoondMee
2 points2021-05-09 20:56
The insane this is that it was Lujan who gave the magical passes their martial art form. He was from china. He probably had the original chi movements in his blood.
What a coincidence that in kung fu has chi movements that are identical to the magical passes.
Yet i think that the reason they are a little off is because people have lost the "feeling" of actually knowing how to do the magical passes by nature.
No doubt at some point they were almost identical and the practitioners actually "knew" what they was doing
The mastery of chi is literally the ability to move energy around by their own definition.
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u/danl999
3 points2021-05-09 21:06
Same Lujan? I didn't know that.
If you think about the whole kung fu temple thing, it ought to lead to the same place we try to go.
Even separating yourself from others like that could help reduce the internal dialogue, and fixation on material gain.
And give you plenty of time to practice.
But they end up fussing and chatting and thinking, and trying to become top monk, so they never discover the reason they do what they do.
At this point you can't even find someone who's in authority in any of that who will listen to the possibility that you should be able to visibly see the chi, and push it around using the Kung Fu.
I tried. Carlos tried too.
It turns out anyone in to that stuff is just like anyone else who comes in here, had plans to make money off Castaneda, and realizes what's in here is a threat to that.
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u/ShimmeringMind
3 points2021-05-09 21:28
So the main thing at first would be, can you smash the colored light into your face, and keep the color when you gaze into the darkness?
That's a good marker for the red line as I've been trying to figure out where I am each time. I always get purple or green vision, sometimes red. Literally wearing rose tinted glasses, I actually always found it annoying and try to take it off my face like a stuck spider web.
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u/danl999
3 points2021-05-10 14:49
Well, don't neglect the puffs, since Carlos made a big deal out of those. And they've done a good job getting people to move along the J curve.
But if you have more second attention light all the time, particularly if it's stuck to your eyes, but you can still "look around it", it's nearly as good as an inorganic being, for making the assemblage point move faster.
Because it's pure second attention!
However, that pass is not suitable for that purpose.
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u/ShimmeringMind
3 points2021-05-10 15:00
I did it last night (not the pass) kept the purple on my eyes not long after I went in HA I managed to stay longer than normal.
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u/danl999
4 points2021-05-10 18:34
How did you get the purple to stay on your eyes?
I'm not a big fan of the purple for making recap visible. But it's the most common thing people see.
The course red/black light (the whitish light when it's on steroids) seems to work the best of the common sights you might find.
But once you start looking for "surfaces", you get offered more.
The IOBs for one, might offer you a view of the inside of their world.
So far I've seen a crowded tunnel I could use as a surface (keep it in my hand as long as I wanted), the inside of Fancy's cave (I didn't test that one for how long), and the inside of Fairy's world. I was too surprised with that one, to try it at all.
But it makes sense that the inorganic beings would be generous about such a thing. If you do recapitulation while looking inside their world, god only knows what could happen.
There's a LOT of undiscovered things we can try out.
I'm all for sticking Juann and Lidotska in a crate, and offering them to Little Smoke.
If she keeps them, Cholita and I will figure out how to get them back.
That is, after Cholita gets upset and asks, "Who's Lidotska???"
But she'll like Juann.
I'll just tell her, you grab Juan, and I'll show Lidotska where the exit is located.
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u/ShimmeringMind
2 points2021-05-10 18:44
How did you get the purple to stay on your eyes?
I just grab it and wipe it across my eyes then it just stays there. Maybe the wiping motion is showing intent I want something over my eyes.
I tried it with green, it slid off, I tried the black its stayed in place for a few seconds. The purple seems more sticky like something that can get stuck on your face.
I'll just tell her, you grab Juan, and I'll show Lidotska where the exit is located.
Juan don't blame me
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u/danl999
3 points2021-05-10 20:18
In the IOB world, he'll be laying on those jewish couches the qabalists used to argue about back in 200AD, with Fairy feeding him grapes. Nothing to worry about.
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u/Facelesscpl1111
1 points2021-05-09 20:13
So confused as to what this is but intrigued at the same time
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u/TechnoMagical_Intent
2 points2021-05-09 20:29
Well then this probably won't help, but it popped into mind:
All that's missing is a silent inner monologue, total darkness (or an unbroken field of light), and time...to see what develops.
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u/No-Inspection1986
3 points2021-05-09 20:39
Why do you wear a mask 😅
Apart from that outburst. Namastè
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u/TechnoMagical_Intent
2 points2021-05-09 20:46
If you don't have the means or situational access to create a dark space
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u/No-Inspection1986
1 points2021-05-09 21:15
Thank you
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u/danl999
3 points2021-05-10 07:18
I was testing this pass in the dark room for the last 2 hours, and just had to write down what I can remember. It was very odd.
I'd say, this pass does what it implies it does. It seems to intend a cubic centimeter of chance to become available.
It has a female feel to it, making me wonder if it's not from Clara originally.
I started testing it primarily to see if splashing the ball into your face like that could leave whatever color of light you were compressing "stuck" to your vision, so you could use it during recap to keep the attention focused on something that will move the assemblage point.
But for that I found it too temporary. In order to get a super intense ball of light from that pass you have to move your assemblage point too far to be useful to someone who primarily does recap. If they could already move that far, you'd only have to suggest using a copy of the light while recapping, and they could figure out their own way to get some.
From the blue line at the top of the J curve (normal consciousness), it produces colors too weak to be useful longer than a few seconds. It fades to less than background light.
I also find it intriguing that the pass itself seems to imply a delayed reaction. You break out a chunk of light, form it into a ball, and then instead of compressing it, to make it manifest an object the way Carlos did in Pandora's box pass, you splash your face and wiggle your fingers to maximize the effect.
It's like splashing water on your face to wake up so you'll be alert to something about to happen.
After the first try I looked to see if purple light had stuck to my sight, but I was disappointed to find that the background second attention fog was too bright already, to judge that. My room was already glowing too brightly in purple, to see what might have been done to my sight.
The cure for that? The jet black. Move the assemblage point lower so that the purple second attention fog has some black, to allow you to judge the brightness of what gets stuck to your eyes.
That's when the weird coincidences began. After the first time I tried it. But as the coincidences mounted, it took me too long to realize the pass had possibly produced them.
So as weird stuff happened that would make a beginner run from the room, I kept doing the pass once in a while to try to "make it work". Like an idiot, I had no idea what it ought to do, despite the name.
I'm afraid remembering the exact order of weird "coincidences" is impossible now, but I'll approximate it. And I forgot more than I'm mentioning here. The night was like, "Oh, that usually takes 3 hours. And that too! Look at that over there. Is that my old friend..."
It was endless.
But at first I did the pass a total of 6 times, over an hour. Four at the start while I moved my assemblage point far enough to get the balls of light it forms, to be intense enough to seem useful.
But it was right after the first time I did that pass, when the ball of light was hardly noticeable, that the entire upper right of the room turned perfect sky blue.
So people using this pass: You don't have to be able to form bright balls to make it work. I'd suggest messing with it a few times if you've only seen some vague colors, and would like to see more. We can hope, it's a gift from intent we could make use of along with everything else.
Like Taisha's new book. That was surely an intent gift!
I've never seen that "blue sky" look in a dark room before. The blue was so intense it could have been that someone ripped the roof off my dark room on a sunny day with no clouds in the sky.
I thought of Taisha helping the women back in the 90s, the instant I saw that sight.
A weird idea: If you want to try out Taisha's sky gazing for "worms", do it in the darkroom after forming the sky using that pass.
That would be some kind of sorcery! But it's in our reach now. Second attention sky gazing.
It was perfectly the color of a daytime clear sky, possibly on the lighter blue side of the range, and the only thing that didn't make it look like it was outside the house was that it was halfway transparent.
I could see my phantom bedroom copy in vague white, behind the sky blue.
These days, I always practice in a phantom copy of my bedroom. Once I thought that up, and put some work into it, it became automatic.
But then, that's how we got stuck here, isn't it? Intent is sticky or it wouldn't be so difficult to move the assemblage point.
I started wondering how many possible "surfaces" I could discover for my recapitulation project.
This blue makes 11. And I just remembered. Later in that night, I saw a 12th surface. But the nature of it is gone. I believe, it was purely the inside of Fairy's Cave. Of her world. I even remember her little head peeking out from that surface, with me asking her, "Fairy, is that really you?"
But I never investigated. I was like a kid in a candy store at that point.
Fancy materialized just below the sky blue, which was then gone. I never saw it leave, it was just not there, when I noticed Fancy.
She seemed to want to play, and did a couple of faces. She did the weird spin around thing, where her head and part of her torso bump up into the air around 3 inches, and then she does 1 full spin as she falls back to where she started, now in a different face and hair style.
By the 3rd spin I was certain it was Fancy. She's the only one who shows off the latest fashions and hair styles, one after the other.
To a newbie, it means she's hooked to my memories of things associated with fancy women, and pulls on them to get a new appearance on a continuous basis, to stimulate our interaction as "wow, look at you!".
My other IOBs have no interest in that. They get energy from different types of interactions.
Of course, if a newbie really is reading this and hearing about them for the first time, expect a demon, zombie, or monster of some kind. There's pretty much only one emotion for them to hook to, with a newbie.
Fear. Enjoy it while it lasts! You can learn a lot from how they respond to fear. At the very least, try to remember to see if they get even more real, after a burst of intense fright from you.
After Fancy "proved" it was her, by doing the same spinning she'd done 2 nights ago, that dirt road I drew yesterday materialized.
But it wasn't the original. It was the one I got off google images.
The original had grey colored hard dirt, more like colorless decomposing granite sand.
This was not only the one from my picture, but it had the same curve, and same plants growing along the sides.
So, remember this: It's very good for newbies to draw up unusual experiences, because it helps others.
However, as you draw it, you alter the experience. You actually "re-write" it in some weird way.
Carlos did that with his books. He rewrote the whole thing. How much, we probably won't know until we get some re-run experts.
Don Juan probably rewrote some too.
At any rate, I had a dirt road/path stretched across my bed. I was sitting up on pillows, and it was very clearly stretching in the air across my room, fixed in the air over my legs.
I could have moved my legs around on the bed, under the path.
It was so stable I had time to look left and right to try to figure out how far past my bedroom walls it went.
I didn't have time to figure that out, I only noted it was too far to see the end of it.
Cholita entered the house. I don't know where she was before that.
She was pleading with someone, very loudly. It was her special voice she uses when she's afraid for dire consequences, and someone hasn't been listening to her. Her voice squeaked and cracked, as much as Cholita's can. Her voice is very smooth, and possible slightly lower than average for a woman.
It was so loud, I wondered if she hadn't brought someone home with her.
Cholita is quite mad, but she still loves men. I don't know if she'd bring one home or not, but it's always possible.
I still had my blackout curtain over the wall closest to Cholita, and there were 4 total walls between me and her, so I could not make out the conversation.
But I never heard another person walking next to her on the wooden floors, which echo quite loudly. And I didn't hear anyone else's voice.
I thought, maybe she's on the cellphone, in speaker mode, and I just can't hear the other person.
I also wondered if maybe it was Minx she was arguing with, but she never conflicts with him that long. Usually if Minx is bothering her, she only complains a single sentence, telling him to stop.
Minx is a little bastard of a demon... Never helps me out, always only does what Cholita wants. When we get into an argument about something, he's only arguing to back Cholita up.
He's probably "Devil's Weed", whom Carlos released to his private classes. "Fairy's" buddy.
I got up, lifted the blackout curtain away from the door, and strained to hear what Cholita was saying.
She had stopped a few seconds.
Then she repeated, 4 times. With 20 to 50 seconds between, so I couldn't guess if she'd continue.
"You have to stop this! You HAVE to stop!"
Continued...
(And edited)
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u/TechnoMagical_Intent
1 points2021-05-10 12:58
Maybe the chance, as expressed in the darkroom, is like throwing dice or an agent that prompts Intent to probe for positions of the a.p. on our behalf...like a "I'm feeling lucky" button in a web browser or a remote control.
Simply to see what comes from it, or to work out stalking new positions.
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u/danl999
3 points2021-05-10 14:54
It could be, that's not just in the darkroom.
Maybe "chance" is an invisible intent disruption. And hasn't taken form, until it checks with you to see what's needed. What to manifest.
That's how we get the appearance of objects in the dark room. Some from us, some from intent.
So "intent gift owed to you but not yet given" = chance?
I think so!
I'm actually as worried about doing that pass again, as Cholita seemed to be.
We don't need any "chance" in our home. It's barely stable enough to keep Cholita happy.
Still, I sure wish I knew where that pass came from.
Oddly, nearly all components of that are in the long form Fancy designed for me, from pieces in other tensegrity moves.
So there's nothing new in that pass, other than turning things on yourself, especially your face and eyes.
That's not very Carlos like. Seems like a Clara to Taisha sort of pass.
Do we even know the year it came to us? Was it the 2009 where the witches were advertised to be the next generation of teachers?
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u/maryinthedarkroom
3 points2021-06-05 07:31
I stopped going to tensegrity workshops in 2006, and I know this pass, so it had to be before that. If I remember I'll let you know.
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u/danl999
3 points2021-06-05 16:37
There was an announcement that the witches would become the "new teachers".
Did they show up?
It would be monumental if they were seen since 2000.
People still like to claim there was a suicide cult. Them being in a known location would disprove that.
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u/TechnoMagical_Intent
2 points2021-06-05 17:28
The fact that Cleargreen couldn't publish Taisha's manuscript as her second book would suggest to others that she's still alive. Can't publish a new book from a living author, without that author being directly involved. Publishers are legally bound by that.
But if she was deceased, as holders of the publishing rights, they could send it to the presses.
And Carol was at a workshop in 2015. And this image shows her very much alive
and older
,
(context)
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u/calixto_mooneeeee
1 points2021-06-05 17:51
Where was that? I remember Reni told us in workshop that she is periodically in contact with witches and they do travel switching between 1st and 2nd attention..
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u/danl999
3 points2021-06-05 18:49
Where was the suicide cult claim?
All over Google. Still is.
It was cooked up in private class, before Carlos even died.
When the Heaven's Gate cult committed suicide.
Carlos was visibly disturbed that when people saw that cult die on TV news, rumors started to spread in private classes that some people might do that, if Carlos died.
One person who almost surely would was the blue scout. She was always warning about it.
And she did.
I suppose the rest of the worry was that in the books, it's not clear how lower members of don Juan's group, people clearly without enough power to burn from within, were able to "leave" with the Nagual.
Especially since the old seers tended to bury themselves, to fend off the rolling force.
It's hard to believe that after hundreds of years, they're still alive under there.
Even if they manage to scare people at night.
That's why I always say, stay out of the religion business.
If you wouldn't practice sorcery if you believed it didn't make you immortal, then give it up.
You won't make it anyway.
That's book deal thinking.
The only reason to practice it is, it's so darned fun!
And it's sort of nice to kick Dzogchen butt.
Revenge book deal I suppose.
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u/GarthWatercutter
1 points2021-06-05 20:23
The motivation to fix what's broken, us, is also workable.
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u/danl999
2 points2021-06-05 21:56
In some ways, that's the most common motivation for women.
The proof is at Whole Foods, in the non-food items.
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u/Gnos_Yidari
1 points2021-06-07 12:46
Carlos was visibly disturbed that when people saw that cult die...
He failed to anticipate just how needy people are on the internal dialogue, as he'd been off it himself for 20+ years at that point.
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u/danl999
4 points2021-06-07 15:06
Corey actually pondered suicide, while condemning the group in his own mind for that very thing.
I couldn't talk him out of it.
I tried to bring a double woman to visit him up north, possibly 10 years ago, hoping it would wake him up to be around someone with that much energy.
Someone whos double is "right there" at times.
But I couldn't afford to contaminate her with his old thinking, and tried to engage him to not do that.
He wouldn't agree.
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u/TechnoMagical_Intent
2 points2021-09-26 03:51
It should be noted, as this comment thread is listed in the Wiki's reputation section, that the other body found in the desert after Carlos died, was a woman who was obviously depressed and forlorn at seemingly loosing her chance to escape this reality.
She was the only one to do so, (other than the blue scout, who always planned to leave this world), out of dozens of private students. Hardly a suicide cult threshold.
And this was after Carlos had to expressly state "don't do that!" after others told him a few might be distraught enough to take their lives.
There's only so much anyone can do to prevent those so bent from harming themselves.
Edit, this:
other body found in the desert after Carlos died
This error is corrected in a comment below
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u/danl999
3 points2021-09-26 15:56
Many of the women needed a place to live, and probably lost it when Carlos died.
I took Cholita in because she had no place to live, and was threatening suicide.
What was the name of the other woman? Maybe I can recall what she was up to.
Corey said he almost did that too.
Which is so bizarre.
I was walking into tunnels of light at that time, which opened up in front of me. Dream beings were following me directly into the real world, and chasing me around my bed.
What were they doing for 4 years, while Carlos was doing his best to teach them?
Nothing. That's what.
Sorcery ALWAYS works if you put in the effort, on the things don Juan emphasized in the books.
All the religions of the world and it all boils down to, no one puts in the effort needed to learn them, so they've all become 99% fake.
Laziness took down all of religion.
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u/TechnoMagical_Intent
1 points2021-09-26 16:08
What was the name of the other woman? Maybe I can recall what she was up to.
Amalia Marquez
Edit: in this page it's referenced that Castaneda's lawyer states that he believes she is still alive (based on client privileged communication?)
Also his lawyer states that she's the one to whom Castaneda's ashes were given. But the "infallible" (😂) Dark Legacy (Salon) article says that it's not known what happened to his ashes.
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u/TechnoMagical_Intent
1 points2021-09-29 14:45
Important correction there was only one body discovered in the desert! The Blue Scouts (Partin's).
"Aside from Partin, whose remains were discovered in 2003, all of the women remain missing to this day. " source and backup
Man, there were several slanderous articles that had that 2 bodies "fact" openly stated! If those pieces couldn't even get something so critically important right, makes one wonder, completely sarcastically, what else they didn't get right...especially with all the conjecture and hyperbole they contain.
Also, even though the family of Amalia (birth name Talia Bey) was still pushing for an FBI investigation as late as 2014, the FBI refused to do so. Most likely because they knew they were all very much alive.
They have access to that kind of secret tracking information, but wouldn't exactly be forthcoming with the knowledge of just how much info they have on every American citizen.
It's well known the tons of people just decide to walk away from their lives every year, and start new somewhere else. And the people that knew them often try to track them down, but law enforcement and government agencies do not assist them unless an actual crime has been committed.
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u/danl999
2 points2021-09-29 15:26
My guess is outside Fontana. Carlos became friends with Howard through Marshall Ho'o's Tai Chi organization, perhaps one of the earliest in the country.
Marshall Ho'o's daughter was warned to stay away from Carlos, because he had a new woman on his arm each time there was a picnic he attended.
He visited down at her home at times, but I'm not clear on the details. Howard was a close family friend of Marshall.
Morongo is also nearby.
Joanie liked Morongo. And Joanie was still living with him when I visited his compound (maybe '97?).
It's also sparsely populated out there, and rents are so cheap you almost want to get yourself an apartment you never use if you're used to LA prices.
The ground is covered with Indian artifacts in key places, all easily accessible along empty roads.
I was once waiting at a car dealership in Fontana, and felt a "tug" to the south east. Much more south than east.
I realized I was now sitting next to Taisha on a couch, with another woman next to her. In a well lit little living room. I could see the lamp they had on. We'd been talking.
I was fully awake. Just seconds before I'd been watching for the busty sales woman to come back from the water cooler. So I wasn't dozing off. She was dressed to keep the dealership customers happy, with cleavage in red.
But I was suddenly in a strange home or apartment. I panicked, turned back from the couch, and found myself back at the car dealership.
So I "peeked" by turning back, and they were still on the couch.
However, that direction was also the location of don Juan's old compound in Mexico.
I just assumed it was near Banning.
The witches aren't actually from Mexico, so I'd guess they'd like banning better than Mexico City. It's only 2 hours from Banning to Santa Monica.
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u/danl999
3 points2021-05-10 15:52
Continued from Cholita warning me to stop...
Her spanish accent became very strong and her voice rose very high as if she were genuinely worried.
Now is where the order of events will be impossible to recover.
Keep in mind, when Carlos wrote that heightened awareness was not like the awareness of our daily world, and he had tried his best to give it the texture of that experience, presumably so that we could comprehend it, that's very true.
Except, I object a little.
It could be that being pushed with the Nagual's blow makes the non-linear nature of HA even more pronounced.
And who am I to criticize how Carlos described it.
But I firmly believe, the events have a sequence.
And it's only a faulty memory that prevents you from reconstructing it.
If you take a memory, remove all the connections to other memories, and all hints of a time when it happened, it seems to float independant.
But that doesn't mean you didn't simply forget the connections. I believe they are present.
So the rest "kind of" had no time sequence.
I looked back into the room, after spying at the door to hear Cholita, and I was translocated.
It was clearly not my room, it was not dark at all, and it was amazingly stable.
I got onto the bed to watch it. It was the inside of a structure, could have been a bedroom, but it was alien. The things on the walls and the furniture leaned 45 degrees down to the left. You couldn't put anything on them. It would roll off.
But otherwise, it looked like a white room with white furniture and shelves. Like an alien Ikea supplied home.
I wiggled my fingers on the second attention spot while I watched it. I try to do that whenever I remember, hoping to finish Zuleica's instructions to Carlos. It had nothing to do with the scene, but I figured if it was stable and I had to watch it to figure out how long it would be stable, might as well use the time well. And see if I could feel that "thick as water" thing Zuleica mentioned, for when you wiggle your fingers there. To make the dent in the energy body.
Lily showed up. I wasn't clear headed enough to remember, that's how I found Lily in the first place. Doing finger wiggling. She was there in the middle of it all, swimming around in small circles.
The finger wiggling had "summoned" her.
But I didn't remember that could happen, and couldn't believe she had returned because it was too good to be true. I kind of like her. She isn't scary at all, like Fancy. She feels, "safe". I might be able to give her to someone else without worrying.
So I had to ask her.
She was vaguely the same, sitting on a lily pad, but she was an odd color I can't recall now.
Each time I asked if that was her she got a little closer to being clearly visible as a small woman sitting on a lily pad, smiling.
I had to cut through course lines of whitish light, to find the color she was appearing on, like tuning static out on the radio, to find the perfect spot for a very weak signal.
At the end, it was clearly her. She seemed to be sitting on a little cluster of lilly pads, but still on water in either a shallow stream, or at the end of a pond.
I looked down at the floor. I'd translocated into some flat jungle area in a swamp. Green stalks were growing densely all along my floor, standing up around 6 feet each but as a flat scene, like someone had laid a poster of a swamp in vietnam, right out of a Rambo movie, down on the floor.
Behind the plant stalks, each one around 2 inches in diameter like thick bamboo, but not bamboo by the looks of them, right in the midst of them, an army was marching. I had the thought that it was the civil war, and the poor men had to traverse the swamp.
I looked again to see their uniforms, but I could only see slight glimpses of their bodies walking along. They were nearly hidden by the plant stalks.
I strained to look again, worried my thought had altered the scene.
It was still sharp and stable, on my floor. And still, not clearly civil war era. in fact, might not even have been on the earth, because the bamboo like stalks were clearly not bamboo, and had no leaves at all. They were merely green, and growing from a marsh like area.
I tried to sit up in the middle of the bed, to move the marching men onto the quilt. Maybe I could zoom up from there, and see which world it was on.
But the scene had changed. I looked around the room, and I'd translocated perfectly, to another place.
I got the feeling of "where on earth am I now?"
I didn't exactly panic, but I wanted to know quickl, so I glanced back to the left where I'd been looking on the floor.
I had to turn my neck a bit further to the left, when I noticed a white smoke pillar rising up.
It was a angel, with flowing robes. She was life sized. Mostly I saw the whitish smoke, glowing with pink light, and the top half of her. She had cloth flowing all over her. Essentially either an open hoodie, or a church style head covering made from lace.
She was half transparent, but had extremely clear features.
I couldn't tell if she was a classical christian angel, or a ghost. The instant I thought she might be a dead spirit, and not an angel, her beautiful face got a bit scary.
I had surge of fear, and her face became even sharper. I overcame my fear, and told her I was very happy to see her, but had no idea who she was. She smiled in a grim sort of way, I felt more fear, and she became solid and stood up next to the bed. It was goosebump worthy, although I've gotten too used to things like that to actually get any.
She was around 5 and a half feet tall, on the left of my bed, towards my feet, looking right at me. At that point I realized, she was not an angel. Just dressed like a ghost.
I'm afraid that's all I can remember, except that playing around on the red line for the last 2 nights seems to create a tendency for the assemblage point to move back there.
It comes at a penalty, which is probably why don Juan called it a quagmire. You get stuck there and when you try to move out, you sink back in.
Fancy seems to like that area, which makes sense since she started her dreaming emissary teaching saying, "I'll teach you Sliding Dreaming".
Cholita calmed down at some point towards the end, and I heard her steps walking calmly as she left the house.
For a while I was worried she'd gone back to wanting to murder me.
I don't know where that new tensegrity pass came from. I learned more than 1000 so I don't remember all of them.
But I'll probably take Cholita's advice and not do that anymore.
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Dan said this about this short pass:
"That one will cover your face in purple shaving cream.
It's like a short version of pandora's box, with a joke at the end."
The source link's responses, have some further details
Anyone know who made it?
It's more "surface" tensegrity.
Build a puff, splash it on your face. The "surface" smacks you like a cream pie in the face gag.
For you guys who can visually see the puffs, one thing you can do with this one is give yourself, "purple vision".
Might even be possible to elaborate the use of this, to make recapitulation visible.
But the assemblage point has to drop below the green line, before the purple puff will be strong enough to be impressive. Or to respond to being compressed.
And it has to drop to the red line, before you can splash your face like that and keep the sight of the purple, when you move your eyes away.
Once you have the purple sight, you use that for the recap gaze (and sweep).
It's really not like you are doing anything, other than keeping some strong second attention in sight.
I suppose you could say that the IOBs also don't do anything.
It's just so nice to see a 4 inch tall Fairy flying around in the dark room, pointing out puffs you can scoop with your hands.
It prevents fantasizing or having the internal dialogue return.
Silence + anything coming from the second attention, especially something absolutely mesmerizing = assemblage point moves down the J curve.
But you can also play with the darkness until you find all sorts of areas crowded with interesting colors, and compress some into a "surface" you can carry around.
When the assemblage point is down at the red line, you can even "break off" pieces of whatever you see, and carry them around like a square lens.
So this pass, could make recap visible.
With a little tinkering.
How: you keep the purple in sight. So that while you are turning your head, you are seeing a purple blob sweep across the air.
Focus intensely on the purple while doing nothing but remembering details, which holds off your internal dialogue, and those details will manifest in the purple light.
Not instantly! The assemblage point has to move.
And it can even take 3 days to get the images to begin.
So the main thing at first would be, can you smash the colored light into your face, and keep the color when you gaze into the darkness?
Could be red sight, doesn't have to be purple. And the purple changes into greenish and bluish tones, once you "detach" it.
The insane this is that it was Lujan who gave the magical passes their martial art form. He was from china. He probably had the original chi movements in his blood.
What a coincidence that in kung fu has chi movements that are identical to the magical passes.
Yet i think that the reason they are a little off is because people have lost the "feeling" of actually knowing how to do the magical passes by nature.
No doubt at some point they were almost identical and the practitioners actually "knew" what they was doing
The mastery of chi is literally the ability to move energy around by their own definition.
Same Lujan? I didn't know that.
If you think about the whole kung fu temple thing, it ought to lead to the same place we try to go.
Even separating yourself from others like that could help reduce the internal dialogue, and fixation on material gain.
And give you plenty of time to practice.
But they end up fussing and chatting and thinking, and trying to become top monk, so they never discover the reason they do what they do.
At this point you can't even find someone who's in authority in any of that who will listen to the possibility that you should be able to visibly see the chi, and push it around using the Kung Fu.
I tried. Carlos tried too.
It turns out anyone in to that stuff is just like anyone else who comes in here, had plans to make money off Castaneda, and realizes what's in here is a threat to that.
That's a good marker for the red line as I've been trying to figure out where I am each time. I always get purple or green vision, sometimes red. Literally wearing rose tinted glasses, I actually always found it annoying and try to take it off my face like a stuck spider web.
Well, don't neglect the puffs, since Carlos made a big deal out of those. And they've done a good job getting people to move along the J curve.
But if you have more second attention light all the time, particularly if it's stuck to your eyes, but you can still "look around it", it's nearly as good as an inorganic being, for making the assemblage point move faster.
Because it's pure second attention!
However, that pass is not suitable for that purpose.
I did it last night (not the pass) kept the purple on my eyes not long after I went in HA I managed to stay longer than normal.
How did you get the purple to stay on your eyes?
I'm not a big fan of the purple for making recap visible. But it's the most common thing people see.
The course red/black light (the whitish light when it's on steroids) seems to work the best of the common sights you might find.
But once you start looking for "surfaces", you get offered more.
The IOBs for one, might offer you a view of the inside of their world.
So far I've seen a crowded tunnel I could use as a surface (keep it in my hand as long as I wanted), the inside of Fancy's cave (I didn't test that one for how long), and the inside of Fairy's world. I was too surprised with that one, to try it at all.
But it makes sense that the inorganic beings would be generous about such a thing. If you do recapitulation while looking inside their world, god only knows what could happen.
There's a LOT of undiscovered things we can try out.
I'm all for sticking Juann and Lidotska in a crate, and offering them to Little Smoke.
If she keeps them, Cholita and I will figure out how to get them back.
That is, after Cholita gets upset and asks, "Who's Lidotska???"
But she'll like Juann.
I'll just tell her, you grab Juan, and I'll show Lidotska where the exit is located.
I just grab it and wipe it across my eyes then it just stays there. Maybe the wiping motion is showing intent I want something over my eyes.
I tried it with green, it slid off, I tried the black its stayed in place for a few seconds. The purple seems more sticky like something that can get stuck on your face.
Juan don't blame me
In the IOB world, he'll be laying on those jewish couches the qabalists used to argue about back in 200AD, with Fairy feeding him grapes. Nothing to worry about.
So confused as to what this is but intrigued at the same time
Well then this probably won't help, but it popped into mind:
All that's missing is a silent inner monologue, total darkness (or an unbroken field of light), and time...to see what develops.
Why do you wear a mask 😅
Apart from that outburst. Namastè
If you don't have the means or situational access to create a dark space
Thank you
I was testing this pass in the dark room for the last 2 hours, and just had to write down what I can remember. It was very odd.
I'd say, this pass does what it implies it does. It seems to intend a cubic centimeter of chance to become available.
It has a female feel to it, making me wonder if it's not from Clara originally.
I started testing it primarily to see if splashing the ball into your face like that could leave whatever color of light you were compressing "stuck" to your vision, so you could use it during recap to keep the attention focused on something that will move the assemblage point.
But for that I found it too temporary. In order to get a super intense ball of light from that pass you have to move your assemblage point too far to be useful to someone who primarily does recap. If they could already move that far, you'd only have to suggest using a copy of the light while recapping, and they could figure out their own way to get some.
From the blue line at the top of the J curve (normal consciousness), it produces colors too weak to be useful longer than a few seconds. It fades to less than background light.
I also find it intriguing that the pass itself seems to imply a delayed reaction. You break out a chunk of light, form it into a ball, and then instead of compressing it, to make it manifest an object the way Carlos did in Pandora's box pass, you splash your face and wiggle your fingers to maximize the effect.
It's like splashing water on your face to wake up so you'll be alert to something about to happen.
After the first try I looked to see if purple light had stuck to my sight, but I was disappointed to find that the background second attention fog was too bright already, to judge that. My room was already glowing too brightly in purple, to see what might have been done to my sight.
The cure for that? The jet black. Move the assemblage point lower so that the purple second attention fog has some black, to allow you to judge the brightness of what gets stuck to your eyes.
That's when the weird coincidences began. After the first time I tried it. But as the coincidences mounted, it took me too long to realize the pass had possibly produced them.
So as weird stuff happened that would make a beginner run from the room, I kept doing the pass once in a while to try to "make it work". Like an idiot, I had no idea what it ought to do, despite the name.
I'm afraid remembering the exact order of weird "coincidences" is impossible now, but I'll approximate it. And I forgot more than I'm mentioning here. The night was like, "Oh, that usually takes 3 hours. And that too! Look at that over there. Is that my old friend..."
It was endless.
But at first I did the pass a total of 6 times, over an hour. Four at the start while I moved my assemblage point far enough to get the balls of light it forms, to be intense enough to seem useful.
But it was right after the first time I did that pass, when the ball of light was hardly noticeable, that the entire upper right of the room turned perfect sky blue.
So people using this pass: You don't have to be able to form bright balls to make it work. I'd suggest messing with it a few times if you've only seen some vague colors, and would like to see more. We can hope, it's a gift from intent we could make use of along with everything else.
Like Taisha's new book. That was surely an intent gift!
I've never seen that "blue sky" look in a dark room before. The blue was so intense it could have been that someone ripped the roof off my dark room on a sunny day with no clouds in the sky.
I thought of Taisha helping the women back in the 90s, the instant I saw that sight.
A weird idea: If you want to try out Taisha's sky gazing for "worms", do it in the darkroom after forming the sky using that pass.
That would be some kind of sorcery! But it's in our reach now. Second attention sky gazing.
It was perfectly the color of a daytime clear sky, possibly on the lighter blue side of the range, and the only thing that didn't make it look like it was outside the house was that it was halfway transparent.
I could see my phantom bedroom copy in vague white, behind the sky blue.
These days, I always practice in a phantom copy of my bedroom. Once I thought that up, and put some work into it, it became automatic.
But then, that's how we got stuck here, isn't it? Intent is sticky or it wouldn't be so difficult to move the assemblage point.
I started wondering how many possible "surfaces" I could discover for my recapitulation project.
This blue makes 11. And I just remembered. Later in that night, I saw a 12th surface. But the nature of it is gone. I believe, it was purely the inside of Fairy's Cave. Of her world. I even remember her little head peeking out from that surface, with me asking her, "Fairy, is that really you?"
But I never investigated. I was like a kid in a candy store at that point.
Fancy materialized just below the sky blue, which was then gone. I never saw it leave, it was just not there, when I noticed Fancy.
She seemed to want to play, and did a couple of faces. She did the weird spin around thing, where her head and part of her torso bump up into the air around 3 inches, and then she does 1 full spin as she falls back to where she started, now in a different face and hair style.
By the 3rd spin I was certain it was Fancy. She's the only one who shows off the latest fashions and hair styles, one after the other.
To a newbie, it means she's hooked to my memories of things associated with fancy women, and pulls on them to get a new appearance on a continuous basis, to stimulate our interaction as "wow, look at you!".
My other IOBs have no interest in that. They get energy from different types of interactions.
Of course, if a newbie really is reading this and hearing about them for the first time, expect a demon, zombie, or monster of some kind. There's pretty much only one emotion for them to hook to, with a newbie.
Fear. Enjoy it while it lasts! You can learn a lot from how they respond to fear. At the very least, try to remember to see if they get even more real, after a burst of intense fright from you.
After Fancy "proved" it was her, by doing the same spinning she'd done 2 nights ago, that dirt road I drew yesterday materialized.
But it wasn't the original. It was the one I got off google images.
The original had grey colored hard dirt, more like colorless decomposing granite sand.
This was not only the one from my picture, but it had the same curve, and same plants growing along the sides.
So, remember this: It's very good for newbies to draw up unusual experiences, because it helps others.
However, as you draw it, you alter the experience. You actually "re-write" it in some weird way.
Carlos did that with his books. He rewrote the whole thing. How much, we probably won't know until we get some re-run experts.
Don Juan probably rewrote some too.
At any rate, I had a dirt road/path stretched across my bed. I was sitting up on pillows, and it was very clearly stretching in the air across my room, fixed in the air over my legs.
I could have moved my legs around on the bed, under the path.
It was so stable I had time to look left and right to try to figure out how far past my bedroom walls it went.
I didn't have time to figure that out, I only noted it was too far to see the end of it.
Cholita entered the house. I don't know where she was before that.
She was pleading with someone, very loudly. It was her special voice she uses when she's afraid for dire consequences, and someone hasn't been listening to her. Her voice squeaked and cracked, as much as Cholita's can. Her voice is very smooth, and possible slightly lower than average for a woman.
It was so loud, I wondered if she hadn't brought someone home with her.
Cholita is quite mad, but she still loves men. I don't know if she'd bring one home or not, but it's always possible.
I still had my blackout curtain over the wall closest to Cholita, and there were 4 total walls between me and her, so I could not make out the conversation.
But I never heard another person walking next to her on the wooden floors, which echo quite loudly. And I didn't hear anyone else's voice.
I thought, maybe she's on the cellphone, in speaker mode, and I just can't hear the other person.
I also wondered if maybe it was Minx she was arguing with, but she never conflicts with him that long. Usually if Minx is bothering her, she only complains a single sentence, telling him to stop.
Minx is a little bastard of a demon... Never helps me out, always only does what Cholita wants. When we get into an argument about something, he's only arguing to back Cholita up.
He's probably "Devil's Weed", whom Carlos released to his private classes. "Fairy's" buddy.
I got up, lifted the blackout curtain away from the door, and strained to hear what Cholita was saying.
She had stopped a few seconds.
Then she repeated, 4 times. With 20 to 50 seconds between, so I couldn't guess if she'd continue.
"You have to stop this! You HAVE to stop!"
Continued...
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Maybe the chance, as expressed in the darkroom, is like throwing dice or an agent that prompts Intent to probe for positions of the a.p. on our behalf...like a "I'm feeling lucky" button in a web browser or a remote control.
Simply to see what comes from it, or to work out stalking new positions.
It could be, that's not just in the darkroom.
Maybe "chance" is an invisible intent disruption. And hasn't taken form, until it checks with you to see what's needed. What to manifest.
That's how we get the appearance of objects in the dark room. Some from us, some from intent.
So "intent gift owed to you but not yet given" = chance?
I think so!
I'm actually as worried about doing that pass again, as Cholita seemed to be.
We don't need any "chance" in our home. It's barely stable enough to keep Cholita happy.
Still, I sure wish I knew where that pass came from.
Oddly, nearly all components of that are in the long form Fancy designed for me, from pieces in other tensegrity moves.
So there's nothing new in that pass, other than turning things on yourself, especially your face and eyes.
That's not very Carlos like. Seems like a Clara to Taisha sort of pass.
Do we even know the year it came to us? Was it the 2009 where the witches were advertised to be the next generation of teachers?
I stopped going to tensegrity workshops in 2006, and I know this pass, so it had to be before that. If I remember I'll let you know.
There was an announcement that the witches would become the "new teachers".
Did they show up?
It would be monumental if they were seen since 2000.
People still like to claim there was a suicide cult. Them being in a known location would disprove that.
The fact that Cleargreen couldn't publish Taisha's manuscript as her second book would suggest to others that she's still alive. Can't publish a new book from a living author, without that author being directly involved. Publishers are legally bound by that.
But if she was deceased, as holders of the publishing rights, they could send it to the presses.
And Carol was at a workshop in 2015. And this image shows her very much alive
and older
(context)
Where was that? I remember Reni told us in workshop that she is periodically in contact with witches and they do travel switching between 1st and 2nd attention..
Where was the suicide cult claim?
All over Google. Still is.
It was cooked up in private class, before Carlos even died.
When the Heaven's Gate cult committed suicide.
Carlos was visibly disturbed that when people saw that cult die on TV news, rumors started to spread in private classes that some people might do that, if Carlos died.
One person who almost surely would was the blue scout. She was always warning about it.
And she did.
I suppose the rest of the worry was that in the books, it's not clear how lower members of don Juan's group, people clearly without enough power to burn from within, were able to "leave" with the Nagual.
Especially since the old seers tended to bury themselves, to fend off the rolling force.
It's hard to believe that after hundreds of years, they're still alive under there.
Even if they manage to scare people at night.
That's why I always say, stay out of the religion business.
If you wouldn't practice sorcery if you believed it didn't make you immortal, then give it up.
You won't make it anyway.
That's book deal thinking.
The only reason to practice it is, it's so darned fun!
And it's sort of nice to kick Dzogchen butt.
Revenge book deal I suppose.
The motivation to fix what's broken, us, is also workable.
In some ways, that's the most common motivation for women.
The proof is at Whole Foods, in the non-food items.
He failed to anticipate just how needy people are on the internal dialogue, as he'd been off it himself for 20+ years at that point.
Corey actually pondered suicide, while condemning the group in his own mind for that very thing.
I couldn't talk him out of it.
I tried to bring a double woman to visit him up north, possibly 10 years ago, hoping it would wake him up to be around someone with that much energy.
Someone whos double is "right there" at times.
But I couldn't afford to contaminate her with his old thinking, and tried to engage him to not do that.
He wouldn't agree.
It should be noted, as this comment thread is listed in the Wiki's reputation section, that the other body found in the desert after Carlos died, was a woman who was obviously depressed and forlorn at seemingly loosing her chance to escape this reality.
She was the only one to do so, (other than the blue scout, who always planned to leave this world), out of dozens of private students. Hardly a suicide cult threshold.
And this was after Carlos had to expressly state "don't do that!" after others told him a few might be distraught enough to take their lives.
There's only so much anyone can do to prevent those so bent from harming themselves.
Edit, this:
This error is corrected in a comment below
Many of the women needed a place to live, and probably lost it when Carlos died.
I took Cholita in because she had no place to live, and was threatening suicide.
What was the name of the other woman? Maybe I can recall what she was up to.
Corey said he almost did that too.
Which is so bizarre.
I was walking into tunnels of light at that time, which opened up in front of me. Dream beings were following me directly into the real world, and chasing me around my bed.
What were they doing for 4 years, while Carlos was doing his best to teach them?
Nothing. That's what.
Sorcery ALWAYS works if you put in the effort, on the things don Juan emphasized in the books.
All the religions of the world and it all boils down to, no one puts in the effort needed to learn them, so they've all become 99% fake.
Laziness took down all of religion.
Amalia Marquez
Edit: in this page it's referenced that Castaneda's lawyer states that he believes she is still alive (based on client privileged communication?)
https://gyaanipedia.fandom.com/wiki/Amalia_Marquez
https://web.archive.org/web/20210929142702/https://gyaanipedia.fandom.com/wiki/Amalia_Marquez
Also his lawyer states that she's the one to whom Castaneda's ashes were given. But the "infallible" (😂) Dark Legacy (Salon) article says that it's not known what happened to his ashes.
Important correction there was only one body discovered in the desert! The Blue Scouts (Partin's).
"Aside from Partin, whose remains were discovered in 2003, all of the women remain missing to this day. " source and backup
Man, there were several slanderous articles that had that 2 bodies "fact" openly stated! If those pieces couldn't even get something so critically important right, makes one wonder, completely sarcastically, what else they didn't get right...especially with all the conjecture and hyperbole they contain.
Also, even though the family of Amalia (birth name Talia Bey) was still pushing for an FBI investigation as late as 2014, the FBI refused to do so. Most likely because they knew they were all very much alive.
They have access to that kind of secret tracking information, but wouldn't exactly be forthcoming with the knowledge of just how much info they have on every American citizen.
It's well known the tons of people just decide to walk away from their lives every year, and start new somewhere else. And the people that knew them often try to track them down, but law enforcement and government agencies do not assist them unless an actual crime has been committed.
My guess is outside Fontana. Carlos became friends with Howard through Marshall Ho'o's Tai Chi organization, perhaps one of the earliest in the country.
Marshall Ho'o's daughter was warned to stay away from Carlos, because he had a new woman on his arm each time there was a picnic he attended.
He visited down at her home at times, but I'm not clear on the details. Howard was a close family friend of Marshall.
Morongo is also nearby.
Joanie liked Morongo. And Joanie was still living with him when I visited his compound (maybe '97?).
It's also sparsely populated out there, and rents are so cheap you almost want to get yourself an apartment you never use if you're used to LA prices.
The ground is covered with Indian artifacts in key places, all easily accessible along empty roads.
I was once waiting at a car dealership in Fontana, and felt a "tug" to the south east. Much more south than east.
I realized I was now sitting next to Taisha on a couch, with another woman next to her. In a well lit little living room. I could see the lamp they had on. We'd been talking.
I was fully awake. Just seconds before I'd been watching for the busty sales woman to come back from the water cooler. So I wasn't dozing off. She was dressed to keep the dealership customers happy, with cleavage in red.
But I was suddenly in a strange home or apartment. I panicked, turned back from the couch, and found myself back at the car dealership.
So I "peeked" by turning back, and they were still on the couch.
However, that direction was also the location of don Juan's old compound in Mexico.
I just assumed it was near Banning.
The witches aren't actually from Mexico, so I'd guess they'd like banning better than Mexico City. It's only 2 hours from Banning to Santa Monica.
Continued from Cholita warning me to stop...
Her spanish accent became very strong and her voice rose very high as if she were genuinely worried.
Now is where the order of events will be impossible to recover.
Keep in mind, when Carlos wrote that heightened awareness was not like the awareness of our daily world, and he had tried his best to give it the texture of that experience, presumably so that we could comprehend it, that's very true.
Except, I object a little.
It could be that being pushed with the Nagual's blow makes the non-linear nature of HA even more pronounced.
And who am I to criticize how Carlos described it.
But I firmly believe, the events have a sequence.
And it's only a faulty memory that prevents you from reconstructing it.
If you take a memory, remove all the connections to other memories, and all hints of a time when it happened, it seems to float independant.
But that doesn't mean you didn't simply forget the connections. I believe they are present.
So the rest "kind of" had no time sequence.
I looked back into the room, after spying at the door to hear Cholita, and I was translocated.
It was clearly not my room, it was not dark at all, and it was amazingly stable.
I got onto the bed to watch it. It was the inside of a structure, could have been a bedroom, but it was alien. The things on the walls and the furniture leaned 45 degrees down to the left. You couldn't put anything on them. It would roll off.
But otherwise, it looked like a white room with white furniture and shelves. Like an alien Ikea supplied home.
I wiggled my fingers on the second attention spot while I watched it. I try to do that whenever I remember, hoping to finish Zuleica's instructions to Carlos. It had nothing to do with the scene, but I figured if it was stable and I had to watch it to figure out how long it would be stable, might as well use the time well. And see if I could feel that "thick as water" thing Zuleica mentioned, for when you wiggle your fingers there. To make the dent in the energy body.
Lily showed up. I wasn't clear headed enough to remember, that's how I found Lily in the first place. Doing finger wiggling. She was there in the middle of it all, swimming around in small circles.
The finger wiggling had "summoned" her.
But I didn't remember that could happen, and couldn't believe she had returned because it was too good to be true. I kind of like her. She isn't scary at all, like Fancy. She feels, "safe". I might be able to give her to someone else without worrying.
So I had to ask her.
She was vaguely the same, sitting on a lily pad, but she was an odd color I can't recall now.
Each time I asked if that was her she got a little closer to being clearly visible as a small woman sitting on a lily pad, smiling.
I had to cut through course lines of whitish light, to find the color she was appearing on, like tuning static out on the radio, to find the perfect spot for a very weak signal.
At the end, it was clearly her. She seemed to be sitting on a little cluster of lilly pads, but still on water in either a shallow stream, or at the end of a pond.
I looked down at the floor. I'd translocated into some flat jungle area in a swamp. Green stalks were growing densely all along my floor, standing up around 6 feet each but as a flat scene, like someone had laid a poster of a swamp in vietnam, right out of a Rambo movie, down on the floor.
Behind the plant stalks, each one around 2 inches in diameter like thick bamboo, but not bamboo by the looks of them, right in the midst of them, an army was marching. I had the thought that it was the civil war, and the poor men had to traverse the swamp.
I looked again to see their uniforms, but I could only see slight glimpses of their bodies walking along. They were nearly hidden by the plant stalks.
I strained to look again, worried my thought had altered the scene.
It was still sharp and stable, on my floor. And still, not clearly civil war era. in fact, might not even have been on the earth, because the bamboo like stalks were clearly not bamboo, and had no leaves at all. They were merely green, and growing from a marsh like area.
I tried to sit up in the middle of the bed, to move the marching men onto the quilt. Maybe I could zoom up from there, and see which world it was on.
But the scene had changed. I looked around the room, and I'd translocated perfectly, to another place.
I got the feeling of "where on earth am I now?"
I didn't exactly panic, but I wanted to know quickl, so I glanced back to the left where I'd been looking on the floor.
I had to turn my neck a bit further to the left, when I noticed a white smoke pillar rising up.
It was a angel, with flowing robes. She was life sized. Mostly I saw the whitish smoke, glowing with pink light, and the top half of her. She had cloth flowing all over her. Essentially either an open hoodie, or a church style head covering made from lace.
She was half transparent, but had extremely clear features.
I couldn't tell if she was a classical christian angel, or a ghost. The instant I thought she might be a dead spirit, and not an angel, her beautiful face got a bit scary.
I had surge of fear, and her face became even sharper. I overcame my fear, and told her I was very happy to see her, but had no idea who she was. She smiled in a grim sort of way, I felt more fear, and she became solid and stood up next to the bed. It was goosebump worthy, although I've gotten too used to things like that to actually get any.
She was around 5 and a half feet tall, on the left of my bed, towards my feet, looking right at me. At that point I realized, she was not an angel. Just dressed like a ghost.
I'm afraid that's all I can remember, except that playing around on the red line for the last 2 nights seems to create a tendency for the assemblage point to move back there.
It comes at a penalty, which is probably why don Juan called it a quagmire. You get stuck there and when you try to move out, you sink back in.
Fancy seems to like that area, which makes sense since she started her dreaming emissary teaching saying, "I'll teach you Sliding Dreaming".
Cholita calmed down at some point towards the end, and I heard her steps walking calmly as she left the house.
For a while I was worried she'd gone back to wanting to murder me.
I don't know where that new tensegrity pass came from. I learned more than 1000 so I don't remember all of them.
But I'll probably take Cholita's advice and not do that anymore.
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