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There and Back Again.
Experiences
I never thought I would return to the internet, let alone reddit, or this sub (for those whom might remember). But I
did
and what has happened to the Shire? I was too modest when I left, I should have warned rather than suggest what was going to happen not only to this sub but to the internet as a whole. I disappeared last summer; went off to find the pettiest of tyrants I could find. Well I found "them" and I'm having the time of my life! I would tell you what I had to do to get out of bed, bath, and beyond alive on the 21st of December (actually it was the CVS first, BBB was plan B), but
Bigfoot
would disapprove of me if I did tell where he lived (I hear it's Taz-Mania or something).
What a hell hole the internet is after you've been gone for even 6 months in the real world. The world is full of magic and you have to participate in it; all you will find in the dark room is darkness. Every night I fall asleep knowing I'm safely "guarded" (in the
town and country
) by the mystery I stumbled and stirred, but required 3 years of preparation--yes before covid. Hopefully I'll make it past the 8th alive and if I do then I may be allowed to even go out at night. Last night I even
saw
the Eagle, it was terrifying to know what it really is, where it came from, or rather
when
it will be--after all this
time
. I can safely write here because no one ought to believe in "crazy" Castaneda, right ;)
In case I don't return alive then
dot
your
bell
to come to this
place
, when and if it comes into being (I designed it just for "us"), but beware of the zoos. However, my plate is full at the moment, so they are empty. For those of us here whom think the "backup" subs or even chat will offer refuge, I beg to differ. There is no where to hide in this universe, not even in your dreams.
So many trophies so little time... Enjoy the
Wave
Love and Respect,
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Mind fuck ain't it.. how the fuck did this happen? Although at this point I'm pretty sure I'm certifiable 🤣
Same way most crazy things happen, a little bit of luck!
And persistence lol. Just keep your shit together when things get real.
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Most of that made no sense to me. You see the world however you see it. But know this: you can control just about anything. In the end it's all intent. Some shit we can't escape but the rest is up for alteration.
You can alter any bubble you want as long as you can clearly define and intend it.
Going too far in either direction seems to remove our ability. Center and intend.
Of course it didn’t, you weren’t there, ha. You aren’t wrong though. I actually don’t expect anyone except perhaps the “few” that remained to understand. I talk like Dan now.
I suppose that's just how she goes ;)
The abstract, clinically psychotic, concepts we embrace when going into altered states of awareness really only mean much to the experiencing party. I'd be curious about the dot bell place though.
Had my benefactor not found me when he did, I would have gone mad probably. I took a few weeks off to adjust to the discoveries, they aren’t over yet. I have to wait until it is “okay” for those that find this thread to do that program. But ironically I left chat because I was okay that everyone just wanted to stick to the plan so to speak, but here we are, dan is gone now—I hope techno is well. I decided to leave for my own reasons, but I respect their decisions. However, I don’t feel anyone here will ever learn to see unless they break free from trying to reproduce what CC did, when will we learn? Knowing what I do know I will come back if there is time for those interested in this “place”.
TBH I'm about an inch away from seeking some type of intervention. I get that for sure. Derealization and the feeling of passing out constantly with non stop bloody nose is making me think either I've got a brain tumor or cortisol is killing my stupid ass for fucking with my own weak ass mental constitution.
The remedy only seems to be in understanding I don't know a damn thing and these 'fantasies' of what things could mean are trash and I'm likely scaring myself into idiocy.
I suppose a benefactor would be nice but I don't really see that in the cards.
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Your profile doesn't have an option to message. Can you send me one?
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I understand that entirely. I'd be very interested in talking.
Why the demand factor of 'a week or two'? We're talking now.
I won’t even bother trying to understand any of all that other stuff you just said, only thing I saw was a way out. What exactly are you on?
Oh the "way out" will be different for each of "us". But I was only referring to the
placeI will make so we don't have to speak in subterfuge. It's actually the reason I left and why I returned. I will speak more openly after the 8th.Im gonna be completely honest, its hard for me to understand any of this haha. Soynds great though
Uh, no, you decidedly DONT talk like Dan. That’s for sure.
He is more lyrical, you're not wrong.
Actually, the problem is not lyricism; it’s lucidity.
And dreaming is worthless without lucidity/sobriety.
Hi. I've been traveling for 27 years now after reading all the books of CC and a thousands books of Buddhism, Taoism, Gnosis, Christian Saints and all that I could find in almost any language. It was to find a likeness in the lines of different religions and tribes around the world. And I found what I was looking for. The books of realities are mostly dammed in western culture as Christianity, but there are books that explains it all, what true Teology means, what heaven, hell and purgatory means, what the Trinity means, and most of it I in fact found in Christians books written by Saints and in Mahayana Buddhism also written by Saints or Boddishatvas as they are called. That can move the worlds around without you noticing it, where you can sit in a room full of thousands upon thousands worlds listening to a Buddha from other worlds. But in reality, nothing of this matters, really. Like the Zen patriarchs that when acting upon knowledge found their peace in doing nix-nada. And those who cared less, was the kindest who teached people. But anyway, I'm wondering about the darkness and these rooms you talk about. Can you explain what it's good and useful for, what it is, where it takes you into knowledge and how to get there? I'm intrigued by it. Sadly I've been lazy the last 15 years, so my dreaming and stalking has been truly neglected, but even so, I learn without doing a thing. Words are for me a dilemma in many ways, especially if I haven't experienced the things talked about. But with experience, I can see the hole picture. My body gets effected, as my energy and thoughts that I have under control, sometimes, gets an knowledge without words, almost undiscribebly. Therefore most sacrer texts are written picturly (and other words, sorry my English), so you can understand the meanings with the feelings it projects. So, please let me into this world of darkness, I feel I have something to learn. 🙏🌠
For now, you're at the level of mental masturbation. Best you get rid of all of your inventory for a new beginning. We've a wiki. Better you read it before posting further stuff.
You have to learn inner silence. It's the core. Forcing off the inner dialogue. We're actually perceiving beings, no thinking beings. Focus on the direct, immediate perceptions. Darkroom gazing is recommended because thereby the perception can be more easily focused on the 2nd attention.
Don't mix up things with outside stuff. Otherwise you'll harm your own link to intent. No discussions.
There are actually only two real options for your comment. Either you haven't found our wiki yet or you're just looking for excuses not to practice what's in our wiki.
That was straight on, thankyou. I have A LOT to learn for sure and I really need guidance. So, where to start? I sure need to clean my inventory, how should I do that. What is a Wiki, and how can I learn about yours, if you let me? How important is it to find or capture an allay? And if you see me as far out fishing, let me know. But I've been longing for something all my life and I can't let it go, so I look for whatever it is, everywhere.
Look at the right side in your browser, scroll down a bit. There's a community description. The "About" section. There you'll find the wiki.
An example. Many people cling to a religious context. They call entities "angels" or "demons". Forget that stuff. Those are simply IOBs (inorganic beings). Keep in mind, society taught just scrap.
Congrats. Now you don't have to look any further. All you need to know for practice is in the wiki.
As mentioned above, find a suitable method for practicing inner silence. The wiki!
And last, something I'm very ashamed of and don't know how to quit. I've read that at one point, you can quit with whatever it is and you want. I'm 47, starting reading Carlos Castaneda's books from the beginning to the end, scared the shit out of me, but I couldn't resist, so I kept on reading, knowing I would be scared, not sleep, taking cold showers, go for long walks and so on. And the same happened second time and third time, but something got to me, that there's more than I knew, and I had known it. It was my body or energy body, maybe?, that reacted. So I just read his books without thinking. I was young and wild, and got into painkillers. Now, I am on Methadone 4-5 years, and I'm stuck, it takes my freedom to travel since I must have it every day. So, there I said it. Do I need to focus on quoting this shift that can take years, or can I practise what I need and want? The truth is I went to far into addiction, and instead of searching knowledge, that I truly was open for, I feel I've closed that way. This has been my biggest fear. And a choice I could have passed on.
You can always practice, but nobody can say how far somebody can make it. The more effort, the better the results. Where there's a will, there's a way.
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That is until you "see" the light. Literally.
But you're right that we need people who roam out in the world at large, looking for magic while deep in inner silence. It's simply more difficult than it needs to be without darkroom as a foundational component.
It's designed to make things way more efficient, because few people seem to have enough time to get a big enough and consistent impact from other practices like gazing etc., as a newbie.
I think gazing is something I would like to learn. I've read a out it, it is it like when you gaze upon the clouds, water, a stone you look until you see double. And to watch and see what's in between, that's gazing? Just want it right.
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Sorry, but I beg your pardon. As a female I am dark energy. Much maligned. I personally adore the light, but the dark most definitely has its place. Dark sea of awareness, right?
To see or not to see, that is the question. I personally and literally need the 'darkroom' as he put it, as much as i need the light that shines there. Again literally.
ok Ill bite...
Not following you.
Bigfoot is a user name? You dont seem to be talking about sasquatch.
And what is and when in the eagle?
Besides attention what does the above mean?
These are the ramblings of a deranged man. I mean six months? This has always been a hellhole.
A lot can happen in just a day.
r/Im14AndThisIsDeep is over there, buddy.
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That's just true my friend. In a few seconds you can suddenly become a Tathāgata/Bodhisattva/Nagual(and remember Tonal is as amazing as Nagual, controlling and learning from both. One can't exist without the other as you know). And I, personally, suggest people that surch for knowledge, to read other books like Philokalia, BhagavdGita, Milarepa, John of the Cross, Meister Eckhart and so much more from all Religions and Tribes(but from Tribes it's often given orally, and to be lucky enough to find someone who want to share, is like CC meeting DJ. When you start to read, you, your body will automatically find the right books, books that gives energy,power and leading to knowledge. Others just makes you tired, takes your energy and leaving you empty. Right books you just want to read, even you mind doesn't understand it at ones, but your body understands, and suddenly, one day, you get to understand this and that. It is an art to read and know how to drag out knowledge and wisdom. But when you know, it's just so easy. But we must be careful. It's like a drug,,,you want to read more and more, and then you will loose yourself in reading. Reading doesn't lead to Freedom and Knowledge, its by acting. Books are just books. And you can't live on others experiences. Who truly knows, really? So to follow your Heart, is the biggest way, and if it get lost, you need to change the road you're on. Bless you all and hope everyone find their Pilgrimage, a way to follow for eternity. 🙏💚
lol Yeah.
I have been here for years.
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Oooh, mysterious! Otherwise known as ‘Who cares’?
good way to confuse beginners, typical attention seeker.
just in this particular case, it is daddy issues attention seeker.
this one is either in transit period where he hasn't got his shit together yet, or he is lost forever.
anyhow a good example of what is sobriety or a lack of it. and thank you for showering us with your presence o Holy one
Man where is Dan when you need him, we’re getting flooded with bad players 🤦🏾♂️
Seriously, this past week or so has been ridiculous
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Bro you make it sound as if you’re pointing towards some mystery that we are not comprehending when you’re not really saying anything at all, aside from being understandable to you because it came out of your own mind, your words have no affect on the advancement of sorcery in the world.
Nothing you have said shows someone who to move the assemblage point, this is purely mental masturbation for you, deep down you want people to see you as a man of knowledge, someone who knows their shit or operates in a different world from every one else.
I know your type well buddy and I know the definition entropy and you have contributed to the entropy of integrity of this sub. Thanks.
Groupie stuff. Watch out. You're straight on the way becoming the community clown in here.
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This stuff doesn't sound like sober practice. It's not useful to anyone.
Human folly 101 you say?
Guilty I am..
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One mans impression of failure, is another man's lifetime of adventure.
There is never failure in endeavor, even in turning your back on your path with heart as we all have done at one time or another is merely another endeavor.
Nor is this any sort of race to see who gets there first. As the journey is the crux here is it not?
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So did you survive the apocalypse?
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Good job. You were supposed to shoot me a message over a month ago. I'm still curious how high that fever was ;)
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