Approaching chronic illness with Don Juan's teachings?

All I can say is that acknowledging it is the first step to healing, at least for me. You don’t want to feed it and give it power, so don’t think of it with fear. Let it fuel your healing journey.

You are not alone.

There is nothing you can do in this life but live with the cards your are dealt with.

Practicing sorcery is the highest utilization of playing the game one can achieve, all others are just bluffing.

It's simple.

You need to move your assemblage point.

For instance, the Nagual Elias moved the assemblage point of the Nagual Julian, which allowed him to live to 108, after he would have died of TB in middle age.

That said, Carlos was unable to heal himself of his final illness.

It's called, "jumping grooves". There's a place where alternate timelines are available.

When Carlos fell from the roof at Pandora while trying to pick pears, he was able to heal that injury by jumping grooves.

But in the end, with liver cancer, he didn't have enough energy to do it.

My theory: his horrible students killed him. Then they mostly turned on him after his death.

But jumping grooves is entirely based on moving the assemblage point.

And it has to move all the way to the end, to remove any traces of pain. Here's the J curve:

https://np.reddit.com/r/castaneda/comments/glhpaa/the_path_of_the_assemblage_point/

Since you're new here I'll tell you, I don't recommend anything I haven't done myself, several times.

The last thing anyone needs is more Castaneda pretending. The Castaneda world is drowning in pretending.

But how to move that assemblage point? Waking dreaming is the only sure method I know:

https://np.reddit.com/r/castaneda/comments/h8c13n/types_of_dreaming_you_can_learn_to_do/

Pain goes away when you get to the upper right of that image. The orange zone.

Asthma also goes away over there.

I have no idea what it would do for MS, but it's like heaven over there.

I mean, magic surrounds you visibly. And you have all the bliss of a person living in a cave who meditates all day long.

There's also the mental satisfaction of doing new things everyday. Magical things that ought to be impossible.

Lately I've been chasing things that come from the "Nagual". You can't even talk about that. No words can match what you experienced.

But just shy of that are inorganic beings, which are also a lot of fun, and might even take an interest in your illness and help you out.

And they can also exploit it. Carlos had that problem. They were pulling on his illness, to make him go where they wanted in some watery world where he had to hop from stone to stone.

In their defense, they wanted to keep him there, in which case he would not have died from his illness.

Here's where you can "jump grooves", but my rendition of it is very primitive because it's part of the Nagual, and very hard to explain. I supposed you just look down those side paths until you find what you want, and somehow activate that. Carlos never told us how.

https://np.reddit.com/r/castaneda/comments/hdguap/hunting_gremlins_in_the_second_attention/

But you won't feel bad if you get there, and realize there's no one to tell you how to jump grooves. Just getting there will make you so high, you won't be able to contain yourself the next day.

Edited

I forgot to mention, shape-shifting is in that diagram. It happens when the assemblage point gets near the lower back.

Personally I find it hard to believe.

But I haven't seen anything in the books that didn't turn out to be a literal account of something that's actually pretty simple once you understand it.

And I wouldn't want to bet against Cholita figuring out how to turn into some weird creature so she can squash me.

Shape-shifting is one of those things you hear about across all cultures and time.

Demons too, and those turn out to be true. They do exist!

So maybe shape-shifting isn't as nutty as it sounds.

We also have reports of one of the old sorcerers doing all kinds of modifications to his physical body. He even figured out how to change from male to female.

And to extend his lifespan.

I think it might be possible to "specialize" in that shape-shifting range of the assemblage point.

Myself, I just blow through there on the way to the orange zone where magic floats around in the air (seeing energy).

In the course of moving it all the way on that J curve, to get to the fun areas, you learn the signs at various positions.

That ought to make it possible to hold it in the red line area.

For example, seeing vague colors is right at the top. When they become purple, red, or green "puffs", that's a little deeper. When blackness swirls around with them, that's even deeper.

Seeing the yin/yang whorl is even deeper.

Further down you start to perceive faint lines mixed in there.

And further down, dark energy. Creepy things.

It's a progression of predictable results.

I'd guess the red zone is right there where dark energy becomes obvious. But before dreaming fog is visible.

It's in the creep zone!

Naturally you can skip down several levels without doing the ones individually, so that you see blackness right away. Or you pick up some lines before you ought to.

Some in this subreddit have done that. When they saw puffs, they also saw the blackness.

And some saw lines in the puffs.

But some of that is due to power plant usage in the past.

Must have made some "smooth" places where the assemblage point can slide faster.

Others got an orderly progression, verifying what I believed to be the order of effects.

Naturally, what I'm explaining here is like what don Juan mentioned. Sorcerers "mapped" the second attention.

They didn't do that out of intellectual curiosity! Mapping it is the only way to make practical use of it, and to make it easier to teach.

Shifting left or right can be done by paying attention to what you see at a given depth. Spiritual to the left, physical to the right.

So, to slide down, watch for known effects. Colors, lines, dark energy, dreaming fog.

Don't judge or revel in it. Just watch it in silence, so you can move.

But when you get to a given level, you can park your car and get out. Then walk around in that spot.

Play with it without moving on.

It's basically all the same process for us at this point.

Move it manually with whatever we have. Awareness primarily.

That means, notice something in the direction you want the assemblage point to move, while silent. The silence lets it move, because you don't keep thinking about this position of the assemblage point, with all the worries and fuming about stuff here.

Don Genaro did a similar thing to Carlos, using the sound of the feet tapping, while he did the gate of power. He lured his assemblage point in the direction he wanted it to go.

But he could do that, because Carlos was essentially silent all the time at that point in the story.

So rituals can also be used to move it. Even something as simple as goosestepping.

Or drums.

But we don't have any powerful ritual practitioners in the Castaneda community yet. So it's not an option.

If we did, we'd know about it.

People don't keep real magic to themselves. They run around screaming about it, and trying to get others to learn it too.

People who keep magic to themselves don't actually have any.

That's easy to understand. If you have a lot of food, way more than you need, only a bastard wouldn't offer it to starving people.

And only a bastard would pretend to have magic, when they did not.

So be wary of looking for "secrets" out there.

If it's secret, it's not worth knowing.

I have a health concern as well and I find when I gaze a lot, my symptoms improve. You can find descriptions of gazing in The Power of Silence.

Ken Eagle Feather, in his books, talks about healing himself of a variety of illnesses like leaky gut syndrome. His books are great, but they are out of print and hard to find.

I think focusing on your death is a great start. You can read Carlos' last work, The Wheel of Time, to get an overview of the books and see which you like (or, read them in order). It's a quick read and will give you a sense of what Carlos himself thought was important. He talks about healing himself a little bit as well.